Posted by KaraS on September 27, 2005, at 8:34:26
In reply to Adderall first use - brrrriinggg! Hello!, posted by barbaracat on September 26, 2005, at 15:17:02
> Where have you been all my life, dear Adderall? Oh yeah, speed, I remember. Maybe this is why I took to it so ferociously when I was a depressed teen. It was the only time I felt happy and obviously I was self-medicating. I took to it recreationally a tad too well back then and have been terrified of it since. I'm older and wiser now and would love to keep things nice and mellow.
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> I took only 10mg but it's like the the lights came on in cobwebby parts of my brain. I can feel little pops of life force going off in my frontal lobes. Colors are alive. My normal low-level constant fibro pain is gone, gone, gone. Why would this be? Cause I'm havng too much fun? Is this what healthy normal people feel like? Is it really possible to do more than plod through life?
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> After 6 weeks of inert misery after I hurt myself from the fall, feeling like petrified sludge after increasing the Cymbalta, doing nothing but lie on the couch feeling like a failure I actually went out for a walk with a friend earlier. Sun! Air! Moving body parts! Yakked her ear off but that could be a combination of the med and the fact that I've pretty much communicated only in grunts to my husband for the past 6 weeks. A living breathing friend I actually felt like talking to was almost too much excitement. I'm skipping around and my friend kept saying 'you were pretty hurt, are you sure you're up for this?' Hell, yes! Gad, I felt like Julie Andrews coming over that mountaintop 'The hills are alive...'
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> I feel focused, involved, motivated and awake. If this has been the missing piece all this time, all these 30 years of one med after another, if it turns out I was really on the right track after all when I was popping bennies and white crosses in my youth, then I will be a bit miffed it took all this time, but still very grateful.
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> I'm still not 100% sure ADD is me. Anyone might feel this good on this med cause amphetamines are a popular street drug for good reason. But I give a rip as long as it works. It's like I've finally found the rest of me. Please God don't let this poop. With a good anti-tolerance regimen let it last. - BarbaraCat
Hi BarbaraCat,From what I understand, the first week on a certain dosage of a stimulant can give you quite a high but that settles down to a therapeutic level that isn't as amazing. Don't want you to be too disappointed or think that it has stopped working for you when that happens.
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