Posted by denise1966 on September 14, 2005, at 7:27:51
In reply to feel like i'm weak/failure for using XANAX again, posted by chess on September 13, 2005, at 16:40:14
Chess,
I often feel that way about taking Zyprexa. I keep going, trying to fight the anxiety myself, feeling as though there must be something I can do to fight it myself but then the suicidal ideations start, there have been times I have come back from work and just lay on the bed weak from fighting it all day, it's a strange kind of floaty, weak kind of feeling.
My mum has often forced me to take Zyprexa when she can see how bad I am, she often says I'd rather die than take it.
But when I do finally take it I'm so glad I did because the difference is amazing.
I just want to say I know just exactly how you feel about having to take Xanax, and although I often beat myself up about taking Zyprexa, I know how constant anxiety feels so I would say you're being very strong just working and holding out for so long so just take Xanax and enjoy it.
I only wish that one day they would be able to see what's happening in the brain during anxiety and depression so that we all have some kind of proof and reassurance that we are not in some way responsible for it.
Kind Regards......Denise
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