Posted by pretty_paints on February 7, 2005, at 12:00:46
In reply to Hello Katie! » pretty_paints, posted by ed_uk on February 7, 2005, at 10:39:58
Hello Ed,
Thanks for your post. It was really clear (as usual) and explained things really well. I had a bit of a funny day today, I got really upset at gardening. Well I HAD spent an hour picking up litter!! Ha ha. No, that was not the reason. I guess I just felt a bit welled up. I was worried about the doctor situation, but as it was I have still not found out. I was talking to my social worked Helen Brook about it, and was worrying and obsessing about it, and she was like, "hmmm Katie, is this realistic to be worrying this much?" and I was like "YES, I THINK SO". Ha ha.
Anyway. As for your post.
>You ARE wonderful!
Why thank you sir!
>You can attribute your delusion about being raped to your psychotic disorder.
Yes, you're right. I realise that now. A schizophrenia diagnosis is no different to a psychotic diagnosis (no no, I don't mean they're the SAME, I just mean you can attribute things to them in the same way. I don't NEED the schizophrenia label to be able to use psychosis to EXPLAIN AWAY delusions).
>There is 0% probability that you pdoc will think that you were never really ill just because you told a few lies :-)
Thank you, thank you!
>If you *truly believed* that your toy cat had real feelings, this would be an example of a bizarre delusion because it's impossible for a toy to have feelings.
It probably wasn't a bizarre delusions. I was struggling with the idea that he was just a plain toy and couldn't have feelings, and was wondering if he did because I thought I could feel them. If you would have asked me outright, I PROBABLY would have said no I think.
>How did you think that they could see into your room?
Same as above I think. I just felt their presence constantly. I always felt watched, and I just KNEW that they could see me all the time. I wasn't ill enough to come up with a logical explanation, like seeing through walls. At most I would have thought they were looking down from the top of the room, OR I'd think one teacher had seen me and emailed the rest of the teachers or told them to let them know.
>Did you suspect hidden cameras or did you believe that they 'just knew' what you had been doing?
I *just knew*.
>Considering the nature of your delusions, a diagnosis of bipolar disorder would be extremely unlikely.
Yes I agree. Though man, I mean, I might actually fancy a nice hypomanic phase!! Get lots done, be creative, feel euphoric, etc etc!!! (nb: disclaimer - not that I'm saying bipolar is a pleasant thing. I'm just joking)
>I'm not in love with my university by any means!! I wish I enjoyed in more :-(
Don't worry, that's exactly how I felt. I missed loads of my lectures coz I just couldn't be bothered (plus, I had zero concentration, and zero ability to actually link topics/ideas together, so there didn't seem much point). Personally I think Uni is overrated, "best days of your life" and all that. I've known a lot of people who haven't particularly enjoyed it, they've been lonely or bored or dissapointed with it.
>As least the lectures this semester aren't as boring as they were last semester!
Good!
Good to chat to you again Mr Ed.Have a good evening. And yes I did get your babblemail, thanks!!!
:)
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