Posted by pretty_paints on December 17, 2004, at 11:07:17
In reply to Re: ARRGGGH......STAND IN PSYCHIATRISTS!!, posted by bimini on December 17, 2004, at 10:04:04
Woohoo, I am so glad I've got some support off you guys! I was worried you'd all tell me I was being ridiculous.
Ed, you're right about hospital. At the time when you're most vunerable and feel most out of control (THUS, why you are in hospital), when you need THEM to be in the know and supporting YOU, the questions you get are so frustrating.
The first doc I saw in hospital was at 11pm, when I was admitted. She barged and and proceeded to ask my mum and dad (who were already shot away at the days events), could they please "assess my suicide risk". My poor parents didn't know what to say. They were shaken up as it was, and who wants to be asked that about their daughter? Besides, it's not like they would know anyway. Their not doctors. I got really angry and started shouting at the doctor.
Then the next day I was taken into a room by a nurse to meet a Ghanaian doctor. She asked me what had happened the day I came in, fair enough. But THEN she started going through the events of the WHOLE YEAR. Bearing in mind I was delusional and really angry and confused, she proceeded to take down details of the year's events. When did I first go to the doctors? What happened at xmas to trigger the whole event? What did I think had triggered the event, Uni stress, personal arguments, blah blah? What drug was I put on? What dose? When did this change? Why did it change?
ARRRRGGHH
I did my best to give her a clear account of the year (I really tried hard to do this coz I knew it would help her to have as much info as possible), CLEARLY EXPLAINING that the main problem of the year so far, up to today, was the DEPRESSION. Yes DEPRESSION. I'd read books on it, chatted on the internet about it, quite evidently that was what I was suffering from (up until now anyway). Of course, this whole discussion was made more difficult as a result of the fact that I thought the nurse in the room was trying to kill me, and that everyone was holding me in hospital because they hated me. So it wasn't what you'd call THE BEST STATE OF MIND to be having a logical discussion about ALL THE STUFF WHICH SHOULD BE IN MY NOTES ANYWAY! Anyway after this big long discussion about it all, about the ways the different antidepressants had increased or decreased my mood/motivation/suicidal thoughts/sleep/appetite/etc etc etc, she turned around and said...
"Ok. So Katie, have you been experiencing a loss of interest in your normal activities?"
Um, HELLO? Where have YOU just been for the last bloomin hour?
"Do you have a persistent sad mood?"
"Do you feel hopeless, like there is no way out?"
"Do you have difficulty concentrating, remembering and making decisions?"
"What is your appetite like?"
"What is your sleeping like?"
and then finally "right Katie, these are all signs of depression..."
NO SH*T SHERLOCK.
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