Posted by iris2 on October 22, 2004, at 11:08:54
In reply to Re: Almost there...., posted by Sebastian on October 21, 2004, at 16:14:01
I've been there myself. Been ill (almost died at 15). I have had this depression for 30 years. I wished I were dead for most of my life. Sometimes I tried. As I get older I do not think about it much anymore, I am finding it much easier to live in the present
What meds are you on and what meds have you tried? Are you seeing a pdoc now?There are several very learned people on this site who can help you tease out what medications you should or could be on or at least try. It is not yet such an exact science that anyone can tell you from your symptoms exactly which medication will be the right one for you. But we are getting ever closer:):):):)
In ways I am jealous of you. You are still so young. You have not been ill long, although no doubt it feels like an eternity. So much of life yet to live and so much has been done with medications and is still being done that you have a great chance to find a medication for yourself that works and will lead a happy and productive life.
I am not able to take most medications that have the potential to alleviate my depression because I have this stupid terrible unconscionable bladder disease that causes me great pain and frequency/urgency with almost every med I take. So even if I might find a medication that works for me I probably will not be able to take it. You in my mind are lucky. You can try any medication that might work. And you have a whole life ahead of you. You will find medication(s) that make your life well worth living I have no doubt. Let us help you on this sight. As I said there a several people here who know a lot about medications (I do not know much) and are kind enough to share and advise. Take advantage of it if you already have not.
PLEASE do not be impatient. Finding the right medication(s) can take some time. I know it su***. We have no other choice. One day perhaps you will be able to look back on this time and realize how short it really was. I hope so. In the mean time let us know your dx and what meds you have taken and currently are so that we can help you.
For goodness sake don't let those jerks on the outside world win.
"I wish I were dead too, but that would give people too much pleasure."I am not too sure what you meant here but I have my own reasons for not letting "them" win.
There will be a day that you will make a difference! You already have just by writing this post.
Medicines will never be the entire answer. You need not worry about that. For me it is like food. The food provides the energy to your body but it is you and your decisions that shape what you do with the energy. It is no different with medications. They might provide the ability to think more positive, have motivation or be less anxious. You decide what you want to be motivated to do or how to use your creative being to change your surroundings or who and how you want to interact with and influence now that you are not so anxious. It is truly you who is in the drivers seat not the medications. Life is about living, which provides many choices as to how you want to live that life, as apposed to "surviving" or as you call it war which has no choices but to get through it.
I have great hopes for you. I can tell from what you wrote that you have a good head on your shoulders. Let us help you through this and get to the other side.
Good luck,
Irene
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