Posted by owenus32 on September 28, 2004, at 18:18:14
Hi,
I am on lexapro 20 mg , klonopin 1 mg and half of one 250 mg depakote a day. I know that depakote is a "timy" dose but when I came off it I felt really agitated and obsessive and stuff. I'm diagnosed as medium depression, severe gad and mild ocd. Anyway, I think it is that bipolar spectrum because when I take ad's I have to have benzos to calm down and also, when I took Lamictal I felt "normal". It was a profound feeling but unfortunately I got a rash and stopped. Anyway, the depakote seems like it works despite slight confusion it can cause. And it feels like benzos are like taking aspirin for a headache while lamicatl made me feel "normal". So I recently came off depakote and freaked . It's been 10 days and i am far worse off. I don't know if it's just withdrawal anxiety or if I have the mood tging but I think it is the mood thing. ARG, sorry to babble on... anyway I think it's a mood thing. OK, now my big Fear today is that I've been on medication antidepressants for 6 years and benzos like 3 or 4 of that. I'm afarid of what that will do to me, like destroy my ability to reason or live without them. Maybe if I never took them I could be better now through therapy or living. But I'm afraid I can't live without them. Is this because I need it or they have conditioned me to need them by taking them? Please answer
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