Posted by alesta on September 9, 2004, at 16:26:11
In reply to Re: if anyone needs/wants to reach me, feel terrible, posted by woolav on September 9, 2004, at 8:40:47
thanks, sandy.:) it's funny, when i was feeling so completely horrible (i still do feel bad, but not nearly *as* bad), it reminded me of how horrible a person can feel. and then i saw crazychickuk's response offering me hugs and something just clicked...how important love is..i kept asking myself and god why i was going through this and why i had to feel so horrible..usually i see no reason whatsoever, but this time i saw that feeling this hellishly low really gave me a greater appreciation of the need to love others..(i try hard to anyway, but this realized emphasized the necessity to love for me)..anyway..sorry to go off on this tangent..just had to express that to someone..:)
anyway, thank you for your words of encouragement. i think sometimes i don't allow myself to make mistakes, and i need to stop that..it's not helping anybody...it's like i have this total fear of being an evil person because my mother was that way with me...but i know i'm not..(i think :)<g>). i think i'm gonna be okay, if i just keep my eye on being a good person...which has always been a huge focus of my life..thanks for listening..i still definitely need a break from PB..it's causing some major unheaval in my life right now..
take care :),
amy
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