Posted by Karen_kay on February 14, 2004, at 14:57:49
In reply to Re: Bunnykins! Mania anyone? » Karen_kay, posted by katia on February 11, 2004, at 16:05:00
First of all, where did Bunnykins come from??? It's very cute I must say... Am I a Bunnykin? May I be one, Please????? (On my knees, begging..)
As in my thoughts turning ugly.... Well, my assignment dealt with thoughts that weren't pleasant. So, if my mood is great and happy, and Ihave to think bad thoughts, then my mood generaly turns ugly. But, I've given up that assignment, asI recalled several memories and decided to stop at that... Let's leave well enough alone, I say,.....
You must know that everyone's patterns aren't going to fit yours. My "cycles" are very odd indeed. And my meds that work for me are again very odd. But, I understand completely why you want to look at patterns.
As for mine, I again am still having racing thoughts, general hyperness, giddiness, ect... Telltale signs of hypomania... Another kick inthe pants is the fact that my insurance is being a dick and I have to now pay for my meds, whcih is about 200 for 10 days supply. My boyfriend decided it is "uneeded" and it scares the crap out of me, as I am already hypomanic, and if I discontinue my meds, I bel8ieve Iwill become all out manic.... Now, this is Carazy Karen,.... Karen who takes her clothes off in the middle of the street. Karen who sleeps with strangers she met at a coffee house while getting her morning cup of coffee... Karen who is arrested ofr shoplifting a houseplant and laughs when they take her picture inthe store... I'm terrified, butr I'm going to do it, just to prove everyone wrong. Jsut to say, "LOOK IT!!! You're wrong! I need this medication to STAY SANE!!! NOW ARE YOU GOING TO F)*^T*^%(^ LISTEN TO ME??" I know it's not right to get myself in trouble to prove a point, but maybe now my friends and family will believe me that I'm sick and need meds to stay sane! ARGGGGGGG!!!!!
I'm studying telecommunications, BTW!!! Sorry to come onhere and gripe, but I'm just frustrated with people who think that my meds aren't a necessity! And who think that playstations, cell phones, expensive dinners, ect are!!! Let me go out and cause trouble! Let me get put back in the hospital! If that's what I have to do to prove I'm sick, I'll do it! Maybe soemone will finally listen to me!!!! I guess actions do speak louder than words!
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