Posted by sip on January 31, 2004, at 2:26:38
In reply to Re: Ladies on lex. please respond! FEELING HORRIBLE, posted by lepus on January 28, 2004, at 21:34:25
Lepus, how did it go? Please do keep us posted.
Unfortunately I can't seem to keep up with this board -- but I am grateful to be able to check in and see how folks are doing and find out new info.
Just wanted to give a little update: I am just about at 2 months on Lex and the changes have been incredible. I feel much more optimistic, much more steady, not prone to despair and negativity so much. Plus I find myself being more open and flexible in psychotherapy and my therapist noted that I seem to be in the middle of shifting toward listening to myself more. She observed that I am a very sensitive person who often accurately reads and then uses cues from other people (what they want/need) to determine my behavior and she's noticed that I seem to do better at being with myself. This shift has caused me to feel a litttle disoriented in some regards, but I am really glad I went on Lex.
I was worried in the beginning about a certain emotional flatness I was experiencing. I hadn't been crying at all. This is a rather funny sentence to write but last week I cried and was relieved about it. I feel like I can experience my feelings of sadness or disappointment without drowning in them.
Also I remember my dreams almost everyday. At first I thought I was having more vivid dreams but then I realized I didn't used to rememeber my dreams so this is a new development.
Not so positive developments:
*Intense* carb cravings.
Weak and delayed orgasmsI started taking gingko biloba for the sexual s/e's today and will report back if people are interested. I am still trying to figure out what to do about the carb cravings. I currently don't exercise and am at average weight (and don't seem to have gained) but I think I am going to need to get off my ass and start walking.
Lastly, I used to have terrible depressive PMS. I would cry very easily and become extremely sad. My PMS has lessened somewhat (this was true last month as well). But I noticed this month that rather than depressiveness I am bitchy and irritable. Nothing out of control or rageful (and frankly I kind of prefer being irritable than depressed and self-hating) but it's interesting.
Thanks for everyone's support and helpful words!!!
poster:sip
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