Posted by Ilene on October 12, 2003, at 21:17:00
In reply to depression or something else, posted by scatterbrained on October 10, 2003, at 19:35:57
> I guess I've been depressed or whatever this is for 4 years since 17. It progressively seems to get worse. First it started out as just a mood thing but now it's effected my cognition to such a degree that my internal monologue has completly fragmented and disapeared. I have to write down my thoughts just to think them and I used to be SOOO articulate; that was my thing.
Yes. Except in my case the outside world gets somewhat fragmented and my internal monologue overpowers it, but then I forget everything.
The drugs don't seem to help. This is my experience. I have tried all the SSRI and the same thing seems to happen every time. The drugs work vaguely well, nothing substancial, but then within the next few days they make me completly delerious;to the point that I can't even understand what people are saying to me as if they are speaking a different language. I've tried effexor, worked moderatly well at first then I got sooo anxoius and just plain STRANGE feeling.
I think Effexor makes a lot of people feel "just plain STRANGE". I can't think of any way to describe it.
Tried wellbutrin which made me paranoid and delerious. I feel as if there is something else going on, I am constantly confused, not just depressed.I can't even concentrate enough to drive a car, or have a conversation.
I get very withdrawn when I can't process what people say.
I don't know what to do, I've tried everything and nothing works.I have such high asperations, asperations that were realistic until this debilitating whatever it is started to happen.Please someone help me.
I'm going to NIMH on Thursday to be screened to participate in a clinical trial of an Alzheimer's drug as an AD. I don't think depression is just a mood disorder anymore.Ilene
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