Posted by PhoenixGirl on March 3, 2003, at 0:45:43
In reply to CAN I KILL LONELINESS?, posted by KrissyP on March 1, 2003, at 22:47:28
Krissy, I feel you. The words you say could have come straight from my mouth. There are people who feel the same emotions as you are feeling. Krissy, you are not alone. You're precious and you deserve to feel good. Even though I haven't met you, I care about you. Remember that there are many people who are experiencing just what you are experiencing, and we're right there with you.
Hi, My soul hurts tonight-real bad. I feel so empty. I am frustrated and wish my life was just different. I wish I had the courage to meet new people, and fine some balance and just glow with joy. I am feeling like I am self-sabotaging my very own life by not doing things I should be. I want to lose weight-my smoking is getting out of control where my chest is hurting. Is this what my life is going to be like? I can't stop wishing for the good times of my past for the life of me-my soul is so depleted and I don't know how to get it back. As I type, thoughts go through my head about what I need to do to stop feeling this way. The only answers that come to me are a total blank and my heart sinks again. I pray for courage, and pray that I will not be lonely for the rest of my life. I live with chaos around me-I'm 32-but yet when I go out and get a place of my own again, I still think "Will things really be any different?" I have isolated myself and I know I can do better. I wish I had the answers but it seems as if I don't. It seems that I am all talk thinking the life I want will just fall into my lap-maybe I'm a spoiled brat?I just took my 75mg Effexor-XR and 2mg Klonopin-thought I would turn in early tonight because I can't stand this feeling. Did I do something to deserve to feel this way-I probably did. I look at my friends-all either married have kids or are working or both-I am not. I feel like there is a huge hole right where my heart is supposed to be.
> I just wanted to share this is the real me at this moment, and I hope I wake up tomorrow feeling better. I am so frustrated but it's my own fault. I haven't begun exercise again, and I seem to think that everything is AOK but it's really not-who am I fooling? Kind of a somber post-I am sorry-I just don't know how to fight this.
> Kristen
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