Posted by jonh kimble on January 19, 2003, at 1:41:45
In reply to For John Kimble, posted by Tepiaca on January 18, 2003, at 22:15:29
Well, Ill help you if I can but Im pretty confused myself. Im 18 year old male in canada. Ive had social phobia and a whack of other things for my whole life, but only seriously in the past five years. To be brutally honest the only thing thats helped so far is snorting my ritalin and dexadrin, but ive learned the hard way that this aint such a good idea beacuse they cause a crash that makes me suicidal. Ya, so pretty much 0 with the meds so far, but Im not giving up. I think this is my only hope.
Am I happy? well I went to the hospital emergency this week because I was suicidal, and this is how I feel most of the time. Its not just the sp, im depressed and stuff like that. maybe im numb and cant feel just how bad things are, or maybe i still have a spark of hope, but I am still alive so there must be something that keeps me through this hell. ya i take fish oil, 3gs a day, i dont feel anything, but its cheep and i guess its good for me, so thats why.
I guess I have "friends", but its really only superficial. I cant talk to anyone, and I only see them the odd, odd, odd time when they go drinking (they know thats all I like to do when Im with them) And finally, no im not psychotic.
poster:jonh kimble
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