Posted by medlib on December 10, 2002, at 2:25:22
Originally posted by Joe Nelson on Psychological Babble 12/9/02
> Hi I have a very serious problem after using Paxil, I was given it about 3 1/2 years ago for panic attacks I began to notice alot of the usuall things after taking it that everyone complains about, I contacted my Dr. several times about the changes I seen, anyway I am going to try and make a long story short here, after about 2 months of use I notced the brain altering effects of the drug already, this included worse feeling panic symptoms obsessive thoughts already felt like I was in a dream world etc. but it was when I tried to quit it the first time I got a heck of a expirience, I made it about 2 weeks wihtout the stuff and had felt all the usual withdrawals that people get, but I did not know that is what I had, anyway after the end of the second week I felt like I needed to go back on Paxil so I went back to it I was only taking 10mg at the time, when I started the Paxil up again, I was working on a car 3 days later and all of the sudden my brain fired a thought this was what it was quote"afraid of everything" when my brain did this I kind of shrugged it off did not seem all that unusual right away untill it came back again seconds later this time when it came back my brain froze inside I could not think even, I felt a almost jolt like expirience of many things go through my body one of terror, emotional breakdown, and almost panic like only worse, the next thing to happen was I sensed all objects around me and freaked out, the idea was so real that even my own judgement could not make up for the thought, what made it even worse was that everytime I picked up a object or was around something my brain would fire this thought, and I would get the symptoms all at ounce which is what made it scary.It was the first time in my life that I actually had no control over my brain and felt as though I would begin screaming for help somehow, well after being back on paxil for about 2 weeks the thought got more distant and the symptoms were easing I knew I might make it now, well in the meantime I started seeking out someone in the mental health proffession because I knew something happened that was not good, there reasoning was OCD well I did not know any better so thought that was what it was, well after this I was afraid to quit paxil but the nice thing about it was I was not really okay yet, though I seemed to pull out of this I was still seeing all the abnormal problems that paxil was causing I got my final blow on December 16,1999 I had come home from town sat down in front of the tv had no idea what was going to happen to me that day, as I watched Tv I noticed that this guy had a red shirt on and my brain seemed to go weird over the color of it, now the shirt was red still but something had altered just in a split second, when I went to bed that night my brain kept firing the thought color over and over again, when I got up the next day everything seemed okay, and I thought well after being on Paxil now and having so many strange things happen already I kind of blew it off, well when I went outside that day I was fueling up a model aircraft engine and was struck down again,as I drew up the pink fuel my brain fired the thought"color" and then here again felt like someone pulled the rug out from under me, had the terror like symptoms, brain froze up the whole bit just about like the previous couple months before, only this time, instead of just having thoughts about color my brain would do these symptoms just looking at colors, so to make a even longer story short here, it is 3 years later now, I have had no improvemnt I threw paxil away 2 weeks after this color problem happened to me, after that my brain has never been right over color, the problem is so bad after having suffered for this long that I vomit almost on a daily basis from it, my brain has gotten weak from me having to deal with these kinds of symtpoms and the bizzare way that it is composing color now, I can't even look at the blue sky without my brain being all queer like and stuff, I mean is absolutely horrible, now what I am looking for is what kind of help is there for me now, I know what psychiatry would try as I asked them now, say Resiperdone or say Zyprexa, yeah I am shure that would fix me right up alright, I know someone must have a answer to this and hoping that I might find the right kind of help now. any imput on this would be appreaciated thanks.
poster:medlib
thread:131209
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20021203/msgs/131209.html