Posted by IsoM on August 21, 2002, at 14:11:16
In reply to Re: more on Tactile synesthesia » IsoM, posted by Ritch on August 21, 2002, at 9:31:44
Yeah, Mitch, I never have had shape distortions either, just scale like you. It's the hardest thing to describe for others so when I've heard odd descriptions from others & starting asking them if it seemed like such-n-such, they'd nod excitedly, saying 'yes!'
Things may still 'look' the same but 'feel' completely different. While I experienced this first at 8 or 9, I never had a migraine till I was 20 & remember it vividly as I was intrigued why I had this weird flickering pattern in my vision (scintillating scotoma). I had no pain with this first occurence but did with subsequent ones.
With my first experience as a child, I could 'see' these two small rocks circling each other in the air. Sometimes they seemed to be tiny particles, other times like huge boulders. But when I tried to focus on them better, I realized that there wasn't any rocks there. I thought at that time I was simply delirious with my fever (I was a knowledgable kid then!). As I lay in bed sick, my hands resting on my stomach, they 'felt' huge, then small. My stomach felt close to my hands but also infinitely far away. The surface felt like a honeycomb of hard crusty matter but underneath, soft & spongey. It reminded me of the cap or cone of a morel mushroom (I was into botany back then in a child-like way).
I still occasionlly can lie in bed in a darkened room & looking at the ceiling, I see the light fixture so close & yet oddly, infinitely far away. It can flucuate like that at times. When it's close, I could reach out without extending my arm & touch it, though I know in reality I couldn't. Sometimes, it seems like the ceiling comes closer & closer. If I close my eyes, the perception is still there strangely. I can feel the 'plane' (2-dimensional plane) of whatever it is move closer & closer till it 'touches' the 'plane'of my eyes & pass beyond through the back of my head. A very strange feeling indeed, but very intriguing for me.
I, too, have these audio 'echoes', mostly voices though. Only once did I ever try to describe it to a doctor & he looked at me askance & started asking questions about schizophrenia. I never brought it up to any doctor after that.
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