Posted by EmilyAnn on July 25, 2002, at 21:24:35
hi all.
I recently was discharged from a mental hospital. I was there for about a week. I was having a really hard time w/ my depression. I cut again too...my arms and legs. I was having obsessive thoughts and plans about suicide. My friend called the ambulance and then I went into the hospital.
I am in a partial hospitalization program now (outpatient), on different meds, and going to my old counselor again.
The meds I'm on now are Depakote (again, but it wasn't monitored before) 1000/mg/day...Celexa 20mg/day and Naltrexone...the Naltrexone is for cutting..>I think it's crap, I don't need it, but I'll listen to the doc for now. Naltrexone is primarily used as an opiate blocker for those addicted to herione (one of the few drugs I have never done) and to treat alcoholism. But my doc said it helps w/ cutting, so she wants me on it.
She thinks I have ADHD, I think that's hillarious. I also think she must be on crack to think that. I am so obviously BP II that it's not even funny. On my discharge sheet she wrote major depression, ADHD and R/O Bipolar...does that mean rule out bipolar?
She had me taking Adderal...funny, an alcoholic/addict taking adderal! I don't need a damn stimulant anyway...sure it may be nice to not be so damn tired, but I know myself, I'll abuse it...and I don't need it. I can't concentrate sometimes due to the depression, I do not have ADHD. She's nutty. But she said I didn't have to take the adderal anymore, so I flushed them.
It's difficult, b/c I have to listen to her, or I'll be considered non-compliant, but some times I think they don't listen to us, ya know? But other than that she's pretty good so far.
Any suggestions would be appreciated. I'm still having trouble with my depression...I feel that I have no control over it...that it's still managing me, not the other way around. I need to get a handle on it in order to manage it.
Help, if you can.
-B
poster:EmilyAnn
thread:113737
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