Posted by Chloe on July 3, 2002, at 18:45:24
In reply to Re: Cycling-depakote/Li prn???? » Chloe, posted by Ritch on July 3, 2002, at 1:06:13
> Hi there! I have been away for a while. My suggestion would be to up the Depakote to 500mg at bedtime or 250mg twice daily. It definitely works better on my temper than anything else.
>
> Mitch
Hey Mitch,
I was wondering about you...Hoping you were doing ok and all.
I have been in an agitated rages on and off for days. I have wanted to increase the Depakote. But if I increase a med, like depakote, I have a hell of a time decreasing it. So everytime I bump up a med, it becomes permanent, because I get so irritable trying to decreasing the dose. Depakote is fairly benign interms of side effects, except for the hair loss thing, for me. It's like a hair-be-gone pill for me. I loose so much hair everyday, it's amazing I still look like i have a decent but fine crop.
I also hate the weight gain thing. It increases appetite and with the doxepin+depakote+bcp, i am just starving all the time. I guess it's better than a stark raving lunitic.I HATE it when I cycle. More than anything. On my latest "up", I planned this "vacation" where I intend to drive 600 miles by myself. So I can spend two weeks with my family, i.e parents, brother, sister, nephews. I was so excited about this at the time. I rented a cottage for two weeks, rented a car that could make the trip. I was so high and confident. I thought this was going to be the greatest trip. Well, I have all this money invested in this, and my family is so excited that I am coming, and everyday since my crash about a week ago, I can't stop freaking out about this. I start crying in panic, dissociating or planning my final exit, because I am to embarrassed to cancel and loose all the money and disappoint my family. I am so messed up now, I just don't know what to do. The date is going to come, and I think I am just not going to go. I can't handle it in my agitated depressed state. This trip would be a challenge on a good day!
But who knows I might cycle around into feeling EXTREMELY ambitious, and want to go on this trip. I sure can't imagine it now. My therapist kept saying two weeks is a long time, family always gets you going, yadda, yadda. I scoffed at his attempts to reeling me back in. Oops. Now I am really in a mess. And I don't know if dep. will help. It sure won't help the depression part of this. But might make me more reasonable in the interum.
Sorry for the blab fest. I guess I am really scared this time. Cycling should not be taken lightly. The crash, IMO is too hard to live through time and time again...I wish my pdoc were more help.
I am really glad to hear from you. I missed reading your posts. How are you doing? Any secrets to the perfect med regime? :?)
Chloe
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