Posted by Bob on March 28, 2002, at 12:32:01
In reply to I hear ya bro!! » Bob, posted by jay on March 28, 2002, at 5:41:15
I'm with you Jay. My life has degenerated to where any tinkering with the meds any longer sends me into a physical and mental tailspin. Meanwhile, I'm about 25-30 percent functional (on a decent day) on my current meds, but I'm real scared to change them anymore. I worked my ass off to get an engineering degree, and now 10 years later, I've finally had to go on disability. Eventually I won't even have that. All my friends and acquaintances have moved on with their lives; getting promoted in their careers, getting married, having children. It's extremely humbling, frustrating, and infuriating.
Bob
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> I am at a point, again, of just being so tired, feeling so low and also so anxoety-prone, and all the damn "tinkering" of my medications. I started to cry when I pulled into my driveway this morning, from working at a job *that sucks*, making mimimum wage, when I have two college degrees, and 10+ years as a professional. I *thought* my meds where supposed to protect me from feeling so shitty...help motivate me to get a good job. Maybe walking around in a stoned haze isn't such a bad idea afterall. I *still* have yet to see anybody, besides some safety factors, prove alcohol and pot to less effective than most medications out there.
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> /rant
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> Jay
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