Posted by Triss on January 30, 2002, at 0:22:53
In reply to Re: Lithium Augmentation of Nardil, posted by Triss on January 29, 2002, at 1:30:59
I forgot to add in my post yesterday that my pdoc, after having been his patient for almost 18 years, proclaimed [I paraphrase], 'I'm going to be seeing you once every week ("just like the old days, when you first came for help"; and I'm going to try absolutely everything that exists -even if it means resorting to [so called] "heroic drug strategies", such as combining Nardil -or the more potent MAO-inhibitor antidepressant, Parnate- with tricyclics or amphetamines/stimulants or all three, in order to try whatever it takes trying in order to finally break this [what both of us are now nearly convinced is a 30 year old, never adequately treated/resolved] clinical depression.' While these are only words and not tangible results at this point obviously, I am encouraged as this is the first time a pdoc has decided to pull all stops in his treatment of my condition; something I had always secretly felt was the kind of approach I needed and wished for but never thought my condition -my daily struggles with my mood and fatigue, for almost as far back as I can remember- should ever be believed, understood or accepted well enough to elicit that kind of professional treatment effort. Yet I'm not excited. I needed this kind of concerted professional effort 20 years ago, when I first sought treatment. It's kind of too late for any hope for some kind of 'cure' to count for a whole lot now. Too much of life has gone by, while I've completely stood still... those many years of opportunities for growth lost... youth squandered on struggling just to make it through each day with nothing (no energy) left over for friends, a lover/spouse, children, a career, or even to just have some 'crazy' good times to look back on with nostalgic fondness in later days... years a whole new generation has grown up within... lost years no cure can ever retrieve.
Triss
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