Posted by Jet on January 24, 2002, at 0:49:09
I have had dysthymia all of my adult life. I have tried many different types of AD's and none of them have worked. I have been taking Topamax now for 3 months and am up to 350mg - working my way up to 400mg. At first it worked pretty well, keeping my mood swings under control and I was feeling pretty good. Then I went "down" and had to up the dose. This has happened twice so far. Those "down" times are rough - like my head weighs a ton, I don't want to talk to anyone, want to crawl in bed, don't want to deal with anything, etc.
I asked my pdoc about trying opiates for my dysthymia. He just gave me a blank stare. So I told him that it was not my fault that my brain was like this and that these "down" times were awful. I also told him when the Topamax was working well, I wouldn't need the opiates and that I would be fine then. I felt like a rape victim or lawyer defending my case or something. It didn't work because he looked at me as if I was a loony toon. What's funny about this is that I have known this pdoc for 15 years. He just said that I would have to get them elsewhere.
I have felt the physical difference before with opiates. They make me feel normal, not high. My brain and body feels right. I can't explain it, it just feels like it should. I have been reading the posts about this topic and would really appreciate hearing from people like Elizabeth - I have some questions and would like to communicate with someone that has some hands-on experience. I am meeting with my med doc next week and am going to ask her about it. She is from Europe and may be more open to it. I am going to ask her to call Dr. Bodkin. But if not, I will need to find a new pdoc that will understand that this is what I need and not what I want. Duh.
Does anyone know of any GOOD doctors in the Seattle area that are doing research in this area or are open to this concept? If so, please email me at: [email protected]
Thanks.....Jet
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