How does this happen? It sneaks up!

Posted by cmcdougall on January 15, 2002, at 10:31:28

In reply to How does this happen? slowly over time or some .., posted by bonnie_ann on January 14, 2002, at 21:37:09

There is a history of depression and bi-polar in my family going back several generations. I know because I started asking the "old folks" at a recent family reunion. They just didn't call it mental illness. They called is eccentricity, laziness, irresponsibility, or insanity. I was amazed at the stories I heard about my great-grandmother, great-uncle, etc. My mother and brother also both have depression.
My depression sneaks up on me and I don't realize it until I truly crash. This most recent crash started last year when DH sued his ex-wife over visitation issues having to do w/ his children. I became obsessed w/ family law and father's rights issues. I slowly quit taking care of my business, paying bills, etc. I hid all this from my husband because I didn't want him to think I was lazy (or whatever). For some reason, the idea that my AD (EffexorXr 150mg/2xday) was pooping out never entered my head. The fact that I tried to hide all the symptoms kept friends and family from noticing anything until it was too late. I recall my DH and friends questioning if I felt OK, and I kept assuring them I was fine.
The downhill slide progressed until I was:
* going to bed at 7:30 each night
* waking up at 3AM only to fall back asleep at 4:30AM and sleep till 10AM
* napping several hours each day
* staying home from work
* not bathing, getting dressed or putting on makeup
* eating all day
* not answering the phone
* not paying ANY bills or filing important state and federal reports
* not doing any household tasks
* ending up in psych ward after suicide threat
I could go on, but most of you can fill in the blanks...
Since November I've been on a med combo of desipramine, celexa, adderal and trazodone. This seems to be doing the trick for me right now. I pray it lasts...
Carly

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How depressed are YOU? spike4848 1/14/02
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Re: my depressed life and how it snuck up on me... » Mags spike4848 1/15/02
Re: How does this happen? slowly over time or some .. » bob spike4848 1/15/02
Re: How does this happen? slowly over time or some .. » spike4848 bob 1/15/02
Doing something, at least for me » Mags IsoM 1/15/02
Re: How does this happen? slowly over time or some .. » bob spike4848 1/15/02
Re: Doing something, at least for me » IsoM bob 1/15/02
Re: How does this happen? slowly over time or some .. » spike4848 bob 1/15/02
Re: Not sure what to do next ..... » spike4848 IsoM 1/15/02
Re: How depressed are YOU? ST 1/15/02
Re: Not sure what to do next ..... » IsoM spike4848 1/15/02
Re: How depressed are YOU? » ST spike4848 1/15/02
Thanks for topic Spike! Mags 1/15/02
How does this happen? It sneaks up! cmcdougall 1/15/02
Re: How does this happen? It sneaks up! Denise528 1/15/02
Re: augmentation..... » spike4848 IsoM 1/15/02
Re: Family History of Depression » cmcdougall IsoM 1/15/02
Re: How depressed are YOU? » ST bob 1/15/02
Re: Family History of Depression » IsoM bob 1/15/02
Re: Family History of Depression » bob spike4848 1/15/02
Re: Thanks for topic Spike! » Mags spike4848 1/15/02
Re: augmentation..... » IsoM spike4848 1/15/02
Re: Genetics of Depression » bob IsoM 1/15/02
Re: Augmentation.and Persistance » spike4848 IsoM 1/15/02
augmentation persistence fuji 1/15/02
Re: augmentation persistence » fuji sid 1/15/02
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You sound like me!!! » BarbaraCat bob 1/17/02

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