Posted by jzp on November 12, 2001, at 3:12:22
In reply to Re: Atypical Depression Actually Very Typical, posted by Elizabeth on November 11, 2001, at 20:51:50
A year after finding a med that worked (serzone), I am still trying to pull myself together after 2 years of severe atypical depression. One of the things I'm struggling with most is this incredible self-indulgent streak that I developed, thanks in large part to the mood reactivity issue. When I was so depressed, I felt desperate for whatever small thing would temporarily alleviate it-- I felt like I would actually *die* if I couldn't have that ice cream/book/cd/attention or whatever.
Now, though I'm mostly functional and doing a lot better by most measures, it's still an issue. If my mood slips just a tiny bit, I feel that same desperation. It's causing big problems with my SO. I make these demands on him because I feel this need to make myself temporarily feel better-- like if he goes home, I'll be in the scariest place all by myself and I will die. It's awful. I don't know how to make it better.
How have any of you dealt with this?
(Forgive me for putting this in this thread. If it's inappropriate, I can take it over to the Social side.)
-Jannette
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