Posted by shelliR on November 10, 2001, at 12:49:38
In reply to Re: Dinah- dissociation, posted by Dinah on November 9, 2001, at 23:18:18
>My theory is that it upsets the careful balance I usually maintain in using dissociation by changing my base emotional state. This causes me to have problems with depersonalization and derealization.
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From another dissociator: I don't understand what you mean by a careful balance in using dissociation. Aside from having children inside, the other way I dissociate is to not feel myself physically at all. I guess it developed in childhood to get through by not feeling present, or being invisible. My inside kids are pretty much under control, but I still can't control my lack of physical being except to change scenery, despite trying grounding techniques. I would rather not have this dissociation; it doesn't seem to have a positive function now. So I am interested in what type of dissociation you still find useful as an adult. (when carefully controlled)
. I think I cling to my dissociative skills too much, to the detriment of other coping skills. Oddly enough, I have used SI to help me dissociate rather than to bring me back.That doesn't seem odd to me. I have also used SI to help me dissociate, although I have never thought of it that way. When I feel really bad about myself (different than depressed) is when this sometimes happpens. It has become less effective for me, i.e., still have bad feelings after, so I am much less inclined to try that route anymore.
Shelli
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