Posted by Erin59 on September 16, 2001, at 21:22:03
Hello to all,
I was hit with my 2nd episode of major depression earlier this year (the 1st occured when I was 25 and peaked with a suicide attempt. I am now 42). Over this span of time, I have not been treated for this with the exception of some intermittent therapy. I approached my GP in April and he prescribed Celexa which transformed me into Rip Van Winkle with alzheimers. He then switched me to Wellbutrin and this worked really well (lots of energy and very clean closets) , albeit with some attendent crankiness which propelled him to give me Trazadone to dose at night to take the "edge" off. (He gave me 100mgs. which was much too high, so I broke them into 25mgs.). All seemed to be going well and then I crashed and burned in June. I hatched a suicide plan and obtained the means. I disclosed my plans to a family member and all hell broke loose. I refused to go to a hospital but was sent to one of the best Psych clinics in my area. I was diagnosed with PTSD as well as Major depression. I was prescribed Zoloft (now up to 150mgs.) about 4 weeks ago. I am being weaned off Wellbutrin and now take 150mgs every other day (my weight is down to 100 lbs. from 125 lbs.). I was also given Seroquel 25mgs. to take at night to quell morbid and suicidal thoughts as well as flashbacks. I am also on Klonopin (.5mgs. 2X) to help detox from a self induced Valium habit. My problem is that I can simply not get out of bed. My Pdoc swore that Zoloft was stimulating. My depression manifests itself with hypersomnia as I can easily sleep 12-15 hours a day. I own a frenetic business and can not afford to be zonked out. My theory is there is a genetic problem with dopamine in my family as my father was schizophrenic (he committed suicide when I was 19) and my sister is BP and I once had a raging cocaine addiction. I am sorry if I am droning on but it is obvious I have been under treated all these years and I feel as if I have some heavy duty catching up to do in order to survive. I am considering asking the Pdoc for Effexor as I know it hits all 3 receptors. Any advise or suggestions would be most appreciated as I reach for the golden ring on this never ending Merry-Go-Round.
Peace to all.
Erin
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