Posted by susan C on September 7, 2001, at 12:05:17
In reply to Re: Day 34 Levetiracetam (Keppra) Journal, posted by susan C on September 5, 2001, at 19:35:15
Day thirty seven, Dizziness continues after one to two hours of dosing in am, but mood in general seems to be improving. Yesterday was very short nap in afternoon, no real rest, but faded fast in pm, also noticed not as difficult to head off to bed, but was energetic, before dropping off to sleep, not waking up in early morning as before as well. I am concerned I am headed for manic, as I am distractable and talking a lot. It also looks like I might be getting a virus...I will just take two aspirin and call you in the morning. I decided I would just walk to and from the pool today, go slow. try not to do everything...just slow. whoh, nelly.
Mouse under the barn door.
Susan C> Now it is Wednesday the fifth of September, over a month since I last commented. It has been about that long since I have been able to walk the 20 minutes to the club where I exercise in the pool, I just couldn't get my bearings. but yesterday and today, each, I walked for at least 1/2 hour.
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> Part of the difference, I think, is I am getting used to the change, what to expect: I know an hour or two after I take the dose, I am dizzy and have to lay down. After that, the day progresses into the evening. Some days I had to lay down for 5 times or more. However, I generally am more comfortable as reflected in my mood chart. of course, some ups some downs...
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> But, the question is...is that because I have shut down all expectations? Did I shut down expectations because I started to feel better? Am I feeling better in general because you fine people have been here to hold my hand EVERY DAY? Is it one of the cycles I go through, like I have gone through before where it is about 8 to 13 months that something works, then stops working?
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> Husband observes the changes are very subtle. An increased ability to tolerate difficult situations, noise. He also notices I am paying more attention (ahem) to him.
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> I have lost three lbs and my appetite has changed, I eat about half of what I did before. I have observed a change in attitude, one of 'I don't care' not as in suicide, but as in, selfishness. I don't care if the house is clean, I dont care if dinner is prepared...and yet somehow, some of it gets done.
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> There is also the possiblity that this is the beginning of a manic episode. Talking fast, lots of ideas, grand plans...
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> But the only grand plan I have now and I keep reminding myself, that it is OK to do nothing, to just do one thing, one thing a day. Just wait. Watch. Keep a journal. And say Thank You to all of you, who are there everyday, who are helping me watch this. I, in turn, hope I have been able to help you.
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> Susan C.
> an appreciative mouse
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> > Rriday, more even, think by Sunday I will be able to go exercise again. Still feel 'removed' maybe this the antiseizure working on the activity of my brain? Still waking early, but wonder now if it isn't hotflash.
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> > > Thursday, Definately not as dizzy and tired today, but avoiding any expectations. Noticing I am clearer headed. Don't know if dry/metallic mouth is part of this or depakote. Trying to drink more h20. seem to notice not as over sensitive to things.
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> > > > Wednesday,9:20Am Took 250mg last night, slept better, but not much. Now 90 minutes after doses and dizzy and confused. Yesterday afternoon, about hour 9 clearer, but able to move, but non active.
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> > > > > Tuesday, dose 6 (geesh, cant count) dizzy in am, rested for an hour or so and called pdoc, said dizzy ness may not be due to med, so watch it and see what happens. Am going to cut dose to 250 2x day. This afternoon has been OK, but then I have been taking it very easy. Test will be tonight. Talked to son about noise at 2am. He is good guy. This swing business of being overwhelmed by manic or depression and not knowing it is really the pits.
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> > > > > > Yesterday, Monday, dose 6 of 500mg, got dizzy an hour or so after dose, got more and more depressed and frustrated. I couldn't do what I wanted to do, my routine upset. I feel I am not able to do my responsibilities. Finally gave up in after noon and hung out with TV. Felt better in hour 8 or so. Got support from husband when he came home, he will call several times today. Last night disturbed sleep, bad dreams, similar feelings as during day, angry and depressed. Kept waking up. Maybe noise from son coming home at 2am? Soomekind of superficial sleep? Hot flushes (menopause and on HRT maybe not enough?) Dizzy behind eyes. Now an hour and half from first dose and getting dizzy. Must go lay down. Having trouble thinking. How long do I put up with this? Clarity in morning is gone. When I woke up wasn't sure i had courage to take next pill.
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> > > > > > > I just added Keppra to 1000mg of depakote for Treatment Resistant (difficult to treat, as sweetmarie says) Rapid cycling. Yesterday i was anxious and angry, which continued through this morning. (another story) First dose, 500mg, was last night. Second this morning. Mornings seem to be ok and I exercise or do something, that appears to be the time of day I am clearest. With Depakote, I usually get tired, spaced and as doc says pre-seisure-like, at about the 6th hour (around 2pm) for an hour. Laying down and sometimes napping resolves this. Today, I saw two hours disappear. Sometimes when I am laying there I get visual disturbances, flashes of light and a sense of knowing it was happening, but that it just happened. Now I am a little dizzy. I have eaten and as long as I am quiet, and don't bend over too quickly, I don't feel too bad. I seem to be able to focus mentally ok, as I am writing this. I just took a break and was talking to family and I feel kind of...silly. I think pdoc said 5% drop out because of drowsiness. the literature says it takes 2 days for it to get into your system. I am one of those 2% of the population that has sensitive reactions to meds. So, here goes my own scientific study. I will try to post progress again tomorrow. Thanks for listening
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