Posted by Noa on February 14, 2001, at 11:23:19
In reply to Re: running out of options, posted by ChrisK on February 14, 2001, at 5:35:57
I agree there are still lots of options. Your feeling like you are running out of them reflects the depression, imho. I know that when I am depressed, I get caught up in existential questions, too, obsessing about the meaninglessness of life, etc. It is true, a lot of what constitutes happy human existence doesn't stand up very well to the kind of inquiry you are talking about---everything can be reduced to molecules. But if you weren't depressed, you just wouldn't care so much about that, and would be able to experience some better moods, and have some pleasure.
The suggestion of an antipsychotic like zyprexa might make sense because, from what I read here, lots of people who find themselves "thinking too much", ie, caught up in the whirlwind of neverending negative thoughts, seem to have found relief by using this med or others like it.
Also, from your history, the question of ADD kind of pops out: history of school problems from age 7, difficulty staying with anything for very long.
You sound depressed to me, too(hopelessness, feeling life is meaningless,etc). But---if you don't feel depressed, can you describe what you do feel? What gives you joy? Has anything in your life ever given you joy?
Also, since you focus on rational, intellectual ways of seeing the world, I wonder if you have had any difficulties reading other people's emotions? Reading social cues? What was it like when you were a kid to make or keep friends? Do you like being with people? Have you ever liked it but don't now?
These are just a few questions that came up as I was reading your post.
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