Posted by R.Anne on December 10, 2000, at 20:04:56
In reply to Am I Going Crazy?!!! Please Help, posted by wavs2u2 on December 10, 2000, at 2:21:23
> I have a question, can someone please help me with. I had been depressed lately, which I have been thru several times in life. I have panic attacks but take same med for 2 yrs for it..my problem is I am having what I thought was mood swings but now im wondering if its something more. Lately I have been feeling REAL LOW, physically and mentally, some days so sick I dont want to move, aches ect. Then I would have a normal time, as in not thinking my world would end. Now the mood swings are closer, when im in a good mood I have been in a very good moood, those around me said I was acting different. Almost like a high feeling at times..these are brief though, then I stabalize to a normal but good feeling and then any little thing, and I mean little sends me in a fit of rage, first Im very angry, where I cannot control what I say, then I feel bad over what I say, then Im getting so depressed after the madness wears off I cant do anything but cry. Now yet another thing is happening, weird thoughts are comming into my head. Not a voice (other than the one screaming in my head..Why do I feel like this!?) but like I will hear the word trashcan mentioned on tv and all of a sudden I will start talking to whoever is in the room with me about the little trashcan candy dispensers we used to get as kids, they ofcourse have no idea what Im talking about and then I start wondering where did I come up with that at. Yes I had a trashcan candy despener but I have never thought of it until encidents like this one. I talk crazy stuff. Stuff I know sounds crazy but I understand it. This is so hard to explain. I have no reason to be depressed but have been thru alot in last year or so. It is worrying me now though. Is this just depression? Is what Im thinking a normal part of depression? Is it something bigger? Has anyone ever felt like this. After awhile, a few hours usually it will wear off and I will level out again. Until the cycle repeats. What is going on? Please give me some feedback on this. Yes I have a pdoc but no I cannot discuss this with him, I have wait till January until I see my new doctor so right now I am on my own. I am not on any antidepressents, only xanax for the panic.
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I believe I have experienced the same thing, like prolonged stress and low defenses plus the depression and generally feeling like nothing I said made any sense. I've had it happen more than once and I think your best bet would to be to try to get in sooner to see a psychiatrist-keep calling and asking to see someone. I know it is very uncomfortable to feel that way and can also seem scary at times. Sounds partially like a good case of depression plus much stress which doesn't help. Good luck.
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