Posted by GLYN on October 26, 2000, at 11:45:14
In reply to Re: Men and Depression » GLYN, posted by TomV on October 26, 2000, at 11:19:51
Tom,
I, of course, am also one of those men desperate to "get in touch" with myself. I dont think I have too much of a problem on a day-to-day process but I sure find it hard to get in touch with past childhood events. My mother was a chronic alchoholic and a total neurotic and my father left me when I was 18 months old and even though he visited his mother who lived just half a mile from us he never bothered to see me in the last 28 years - nor has his mother. How do I feel? Angry? Sad? Rejected? I wish!!!! Although I operate quite well in relationships now and experience the whole spectrum of emitions (sometimes within the space of a minute) I just can't feel anything other than philosophical about my childhood but I am aware of this terrible fear and bleakness lurking just below the surface and this is definitely the source of all of my depression and a extreme anxiety. If only I could grab hold of those emotions at the source but alas I doint know how. I can talk about the past and even admit it was horrible and I have forgiven both parents (WELL TRIED ANYWAY).
Have you or anybody else got ideas how to tap into the garbage from the past. I reckon if I can just touch it I'll start to be able to face the demons in my life now which appear just out of reach. Pretty scary thought but better to face the monster than spend a lifetime running away from it.
How do I do it without spending a fortune on therapy?
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