Posted by Angela5 on June 24, 2000, at 0:22:08
In reply to Re: Jack of all trades ADD? me 2, posted by harry b. on June 23, 2000, at 1:14:44
All of you have hit on some of the most frustraing issues in my life, too.
Like Johnturner, I have an MCSE+I, and I work for a computer company (presently on disability) - but I hate it all. I got into computers because I couldn't finish my degree due to "financial problems" - although that was only partially true. I just couldn't concentrate enough to the point where it eventually seemed a waste even to go. Homework/studying was impossible - I'd be bored out of my mind and crawling out of my skin after 30 seconds. Anyway, when I got into computers as a way to support myself, it was great at first. I liked learning about all the stuff that was new to me. It was cool to be able to catch on quickly to things other people had worked at for much longer. However, boredom soon set in - my maximum limit on a job seems to be about 3 months, with the exception of one near the beginning. Part of me blames things on the fact that I'm just not at all passionate about what I do, and idealizes going back to school. Another part of me knows I couldn't get through school - not enough "discipline" - I couldn't sit through anything that was remotely boring, much less study it. It's getting harder and harder to get computer jobs with such a shitty history of not being able to stick with anything, and I don't know what to do...
People tell me to "just do it" or to "just pick something and stay with it" - that's what I tied to do with this job. However, I couldn't write anything, can't concentrate on reading/learning - it's SO INCREDIBLY FRUSTRATING TO KNOW YOU HAVE THE COGNITIVE ABILITY TO DO SOMETHING, BUT AT THE SAME TIME YOUR BRAIN WON'T LET YOU.
I, too, admire the people that can stay with jobs. I ask my mother, a nurse, about this a lot. It's just never occurred to her to even question it.??!!
Who knows.
Angela
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