Posted by tina on May 11, 2000, at 18:14:33
In reply to Another pointless ER visit/ECT/etc., posted by Vesper on May 11, 2000, at 17:40:00
I am so angry for your sake. I can't believe those idiots at the ER treated you in such a sh**y way, what a bunch of a-holes. Sorry for the language but I am really pissed. I am sooooo sorry you aren't being taken seriously. I think about you all the time wondering how you're doing and hoping you'll find someone to help you. I wish I wasn't so far away, I'd march in there with you and give them a piece of my boot up their butts. Anyway, I am very glad you still realize that you have us. I know we're no substitutes for proper medical care but we can give you support and love. Please don't give up on yourself. I won't give up on you. I hope our best wishes and long distance hugs will sustain you at least until you can get the help you need. Please keep babbling, we care about you--really. Love Tina
> Well, I went to the UCLA ER once again, this time I stayed until seen by the "psychiatric clinician" who relayed my requests for medication or at least the note I need to give the business office in order to get financial help from the university, but after making me wait 3 hours they refused to do anything for me, telling me to just keep trying to get an appointment in the outpatient clinic. This is what I have been doing for weeks, to no avail. That's why I went to the ER, I had already cut myself a few times(not seriously enough for sutures, so I didn't mention that, I just told em I was getting really self-destructive because of no treatment and withdrawal from meds because no one seems to want to help me.)
> It seems that one has to do some serious damage to be taken seriously. i have a really hard time explaining just how bad I feel, I use humour or something as a defence, even when I don't want to. Sorry this was so long.
> My boat is in dry dock having some fibreglass work done and new bottom paint, meanwhile I am staying on a friend's cabin cruiser a few slips down from mine. I don't know if i can take another night alone, I'm beginning to see and hear and think strange things, its' scaring me quite a bit, and no one seems to care or think it's a big deal. I'm starting to think I should just end this once and for all, after all, if UCLA gave up on me, there must be good reason.
> Oh, the ECT thing...there is a button in my car marked "ECT" when you press it, you change the shifting pattern of the automatic transmission. I keep expecting to get a small jolt and memory loss when I press it...
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