Posted by Phil on June 7, 1999, at 13:26:45
In reply to Re: Serzone and rage...again, posted by ruth on June 7, 1999, at 7:31:39
> Phil,
>
> can totally relate, unfortuately. Had a terrible
> weekend. Lots of crying, lots of feelings like I
> wanted to pummel people with my fists. (I too am
> normally pretty down to earth and laid back).
> Criminy. I feel like I should at least give this
> drug two weeks, but don't know if I can stand it.
> Maybe I just don't know how to deal with my emotions
> anymore after 4 years on emotion numbing prozac.
> I don't know. I'm f@@@ing tired of it too--I"ve
> been trying to find the right AD for 9 months now
> and I'm totally worn out, frustrated, depressed and
> angry that I have a disease that's so catch 22.
> Can't live on the drugs, can't live off. I know
> I have to come to peace with this and accept it,
> but right now I seem stuck in a most unfruitful state
> of mind of "why me?". I know I'll probably get
> back on some apathy producing ssri and I won't feel
> mad anymore, in fact, I wont' feel much of anything.
> And that thought pisses me off too. But what am
> I gonna do? Walk around feeling like my life is
> worthless 24 hours a day, 7 days a week?
> arughghghg!!
> (by the way, one of the things I did like about
> serzone, despite all the other really horrible
> stuff, was that I didn't feel social trepidation)>>Ruth,
Thanks for your reply. I have an appt. w/ my psychopharmacologist in two hours. I really have liked Serzone til I found out everyone at work was getting scared shitless of me!:0
My store had a very good month sales wise-assholes always seem to do better in business. Just my opinion.
What input I get from my doc I will immediately share with you. Some of the AD's I have been on for the last 14 years are:amitryptaline, doxepin,
tranxene, vivactil, zanax, prozac, zoloft, paxil,
luvox, effexor, wellbutrin, ritalin, klonopin and a few others I've probably forgotten. If the doc has no rabbit to pull out of the hat, I'm getting on SJW and signing up for yoga about 6 nights a week! Although I believe I will need meds and at this point don't have much faith in SJW for me.
This past year, with all the so-called advances in this area of medicine, has been hell for me.
William Styron 's book mentioned that he just did six months in the hospital to cure his depression. Wish common people had that option.
Good luck, Ruth...I will be in touch.Phil
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