Posted by Annie on November 1, 1999, at 13:40:45
In reply to Home today--definitely an "E" post, not a "T", posted by Noa on November 1, 1999, at 12:33:57
Noa
You have nothing to feel guilty about! Even before depression struck full force, every now and then when the stress became overwhelming,I would have a "mental health day" and stay home. I needed the time to regroup and get myself in order. Sometimes I did paperwork that I just couldn't get done in my office or made business calls that I had been putting off for one reason or another. For some reason, these things were not as stressful with a cat on my lap. I felt I had an edge because I was comfortable in my home base. Sometimes I did home chores that always seemed to get put in the "later" file. When I would go into work the next day, I felt more refreshed and able to cope. Both me and my company benefited in my opinion.
You mentioned stressful phone calls, but in the same sentence you admit that you dealt with them. Good for you! They may have upset you, but you dealt with them. You got up, showered and dressed. Now, I consider that an accomplishment. If I may, something that always makes me feel better is raking leaves or in the winter, shoveling snow. There is a soothing quality to the movements and unlike some of my business work, I could immediately see the difference I was making. It helped to get rid of the stress and anger and anxiety like you are feeling right now. It was a total buzz-out job with nobody looking over my shoulder and no one evaluating my progress. It somehow allowed me to put things into perspective. It also helped me to sleep that night. As for wanting to scream - do it! Scream into a pillow until you can't scream anymore! Slap that pillow silly. Scream at the people and things that are causing this anger. Tell them what they are doing to you. I also scream at God, but it usually ends into a very loud prayer of sorts. Things do change! That is the only constant. I hope they change for the better for you.
Annie
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