Posted by phyl on October 6, 1999, at 17:32:38
In reply to Re: WHY?, posted by Help on October 5, 1999, at 7:27:09
> May be. May be there is no reason great enough to justify the pain. May be there is no help. May be there is only all alone.
Why--This page http://mentalhelp.net/samaritans/textfry.htm made sense to me when I felt that there wasn't any help. I'm not even sure who the fella is but he spoke of the despair and nothingness I've felt. There are people to talk to even when we feel like we are all alone.
You don't have to make sense of it all. This board is a wonderful place to test the waters of sharing our pain with others who DO understand. No one knows exactly what it is that you are feeling but perhaps typing out a tiny bit of that nothingness you feel will allow us to relate. I know that I've felt the pointlessness of it all many, many, many times. I'm still here, thanks in part to finding others like me who can understand my despair, my ups and downs, my most painful moments. I've found this help by reading the posts on this board, in books like On the Edge of Darkness--Kathy Cronkite, by calling anonymous numbers where the trained people on the other end of the line are there specifically to listen to me in my darkest hours...helping me through to that speck of light that has always come, even when I didn't believe it ever would.
I don't claim to have answers...I can only offer pieces of the path I have traveled in hopes that maybe it will strike a chord of recognition and maybe even give the gift of a glimmer of hope. I've spent years in and out of the deepest, most painful place one can imagine and yet--I am still here. I am gently holding you in my heart with the tender care that others(often strangers) showed me in my times of utter despair. My heart is with you. --phyl
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