Posted by dj on September 23, 1999, at 10:24:40
Overcoming my huge reluctance to try another AD I am assessing Wellbutrin. Been checking it out for a week. Energy is up a bit but so are anxieties, partially because I have some majour decisions in the works. Woke up last night with heart pounding but not as sweaty as other times when this has happened. I believe the initial wake-up was after a violent dream which I no longer recall. Rarely recall my dreams but the bits and pieces I barely recall are sometimes violent.
Various folks have conjectured that suppressing anger (and emotions period) may be part of my anxiety/depression cycles -- certainly the tightness in my upper body reflects inner conflicts.
Back from the segue -- have others had similar experiences with Wellbutrin or other ADs and if so what have you done about it? PDoc gave me some Atvian aka Lorazepam to try out to see if it helps with concentration while attempting to read technical writing and also to take if my sleep is troubled, though it is supposed to be non-sedating...go figure.
Anyway, took some Atvian last night after waking up with a racing heart the second time arouond 3.30 a.m. or so. Slept through my alarm and found myself yawning a bit when I awoke. Not the deep, disturbing, face distorting yawns I often experienced with Zoloft and Paxil however, which is a bit of a relief. Not happy about doing psycho-pharms. but willing to try it again for awhile as other things have not been sufficient at this time or perhaps I haven't worked them hard enough...
Anyway, I'm curious if others have had similar experiences with Wellbutrin or other ADs for that matter. And others experience mixing Wellbutrin with other pill combos. to deal with anxity/depression/social phobia or what have you...
Also others experience with non-drug alternatives over time --- meditation, acupuncture, bio-energetics, breathing exercises, group dynamics, diet and what have you...I've experienced some successes with all of these at times but have also become complacent in good times and eventually slid into stress and bad habits of one sort or another...still work to be done, beyond these bloody chemicals. Does this shit never end?
BTW, Ian I did not have a terrible childhood, though there was distance between my father and myself as well as much of rest of family. I have a farir bit of insight into various precursors for this cursed state I go into and yet I still go there. And I tend to believe, like I believe you do,, that the bio-chemical reactions are secondary to the life and thought patterns though after awhile it is difficult to seperate chicken form egg.
Like Elle I sometimes curse the creator's perverse sense of humour and unlike Bob and many others I don't blame my dystamia/anxiety/majour depression cycles on the RC chruch which my family was very involved in or my father or school bullies though all played a part. In the end it is the habits and ways of thinking, doing and reacting that I have developed which are my nemesis.
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