Posted by Sean on April 21, 1999, at 18:40:13
In reply to other folks' stories, posted by LIZ on April 20, 1999, at 17:14:02
> Hi everybody writing to/from psycho babble, my name is elizabeth (call me lithiumliz if you like) and i've been on over 15 meds in about five years, i was very happy to find this chat room cause not only do i have alot of experience but i'm working on gathering info for a zine titled "lithiumfiend" and i would like any info anyone wants to give me about their "psychopharmoexperiences"...my title is not meant to make fun of a very serious situation- quite the contrary- i want to make our situations known...i have read several notes posted on this site and feel i have found "kindred" souls...i am trying to examine the theory that the rise of med-use can be related to a middle class ideological base-if you agree or disagree, please let me know- once again examining that theory does not negate the existance of mental illness- i am interested in what others feel is the cause- if there us one of mental illness? what are your personal definitions of mentall illness? does your's differ from society's or your doctor's? i will soon give a history of my own background with meds, i don't want anyone to think I'm coming into this chat room as a voyeur. Thaks to everyone who replies- use whatever kind of language you are comfortable with- you can't offend me. LIZ
Sounds fascinating. I also have many years
of experience w/meds and have thoughts ranging
from molecular free-will to being a bloated
lithium chomper. It is a constant battle between
feeling inspired and alive, medicated and blunted,
and the awful darkness of suicidal thoughts.One thing that keeps haunting me is the dark but
beautiful feelings (an enhanced "reality"?) I have
experienced. I find myself trying to capture
that intensity in a safer way somehow, but I'm
not sure I can. There is a supernatural aspect
to these feelings which is incredible. So while
I recognize that being clinically wacked sucks
and is not productive, it does have moments of
beauty and terror which kind of make everything
else a tad boring. Music and writing almost
get me there and I am essentially addicted to
the muse which is related to whatever the heck
is going on in my neurons.In any event, I think people on meds are kind of
like an experiment in human consciousness. It
is interesting to see how these compunds work,
but we don't often talk about it in personal
terms do we?
poster:Sean
thread:5096
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990401/msgs/5140.html