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Posted by Deneb on June 2, 2010, at 12:24:03
I skipped WW's again and I don't feel like going to my swim lessons. I don't really feel like going out at all.
Actually I am kind of wishing I will drop dead of ventricular fibrillation after reading about it.
Actually I really wish I would.
I feel like I will never be able to make a living. I will never make it out there. I depend on my parents too much and they won't live forever.
I'm just so unsuccessful in life that I think I am past the point of no return.
Why can't I just be a little sad? Why must I always sink into depression instead? Sigh.
Posted by Dinah on June 2, 2010, at 22:08:44
In reply to Why can't I just be a little sad?, posted by Deneb on June 2, 2010, at 12:24:03
> Actually I am kind of wishing I will drop dead of ventricular fibrillation after reading about it.
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> Actually I really wish I would.
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> I feel like I will never be able to make a living. I will never make it out there. I depend on my parents too much and they won't live forever.In the first statement in each of the above themes, you stepped back a bit from the thought by saying "I am kind of wishing..." and "I feel like..." I think that's a healthy way of thinking about it.
You're having these thoughts, but just recently you were having other thoughts. The thoughts aren't who you are. They're thoughts you're having. And feelings you're feeling. It's ok to have thoughts and feelings, no matter how sad they are. Your thoughts and feelings don't need to be reasonable or moderate. You just need to recognize them as thoughts and feelings that you're having now, but that you won't have forever.
Is the class you're taking over? When is the next one?
Posted by Deneb on June 3, 2010, at 11:33:39
In reply to Re: Why can't I just be a little sad? » Deneb, posted by Dinah on June 2, 2010, at 22:08:44
Thanks Dinah. You're right, these thoughts won't last forever. I have my math class starting in July. Meanwhile I just have the swim lessons.
It probably doesn't help that my sleeping habits are all out of order and that I have not been taking my meds regularly. I wake up and am confused as to what time and day it is because my sleep is so irregular.
I just slept about 15 hours. I didn't sleep the night before.
Posted by Dinah on June 3, 2010, at 15:11:23
In reply to Re: Why can't I just be a little sad? » Dinah, posted by Deneb on June 3, 2010, at 11:33:39
How can you make sure you take your meds regularly? Do you have pill boxes set up? Can your sister remind you?
Making sure you take your medications is one way you do have control over how you feel and how well you function. I was having real trouble focusing on work lately, so I added Risperdal to my nightly pills for the next week or so. I may not be able to force my mind to concentrate, but I can do what I can to help myself.
Posted by Deneb on June 4, 2010, at 19:32:32
In reply to Re: Why can't I just be a little sad?, posted by Dinah on June 3, 2010, at 15:11:23
Yeah, I have pill boxes. I can use those. I wouldn't want to ask others to remind me. It's not a huge deal if I don't take my meds.
But you're right, I shouldn't do anything to aggravate the situation.
I'm actually thinking of doing some traveling by bus. I want to do something exciting.
Posted by Deneb on June 4, 2010, at 20:28:03
In reply to Re: Why can't I just be a little sad?, posted by Deneb on June 4, 2010, at 19:32:32
I need to find a job. I need to get my life together, finish my degree, get a career.
I'm going to call the unemployment place on Monday. They can help me find a job.
My Mom freaked out with my idea of traveling. She thinks I am wasting my money again.
I think I just want an escape.
Posted by Dinah on June 5, 2010, at 13:26:06
In reply to Re: Why can't I just be a little sad?, posted by Deneb on June 4, 2010, at 20:28:03
Escape is nice, but eventually you have to come home. It's good if the escape you choose doesn't make things worse at home.
It really *does* matter if you take your meds. I know it's not a pleasant thought. No one likes to feel dependent on meds. But the truth is that it really does matter.
Please make that a priority. I care about you, and don't wish to see you in a bad situation that could possibly be prevented.
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