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Posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 10:47:47
Nothing except gray,gray,gray punctuated by the occasional panic attack that lasts for a few hours.
Did I mention that I've become a zombie? I sit in front of weird white screens all day, and there's nothing much on them, but I keep flipping from one essentially bleary screen to another. I even watched four episodes of the bachelor on the ABC.com website. I've watched the Daily Show on the Comedy Central website. I've bid on about 100 items on ebay that I didn't want, especially after I bid on them. Luckily zombies don't care that much about winning auctions, so I didn't bid much. So I didn't "win" anything. So I'm a zombie and a loser. It's pretty dull.
And then I've been on the really firecracker-active Psychobabble site, reading so many posts that keep popping up there. The site is exploding with all sorts of wild stories and deep soul-searching. I can't keep up with it all. Also, as a zombie, I can't contribute much, cause my life is pretty empty, totally empty I'd say, if it were't sort of filled with gray shadows of some sort.
I'd say I'm bored, but boredom isn't a word zombies know. Cause it's just their essence to be bored. I think I'm zombified more than bored, although I keep having panic attacks. It's worse than being a zombie, mostly. But I guess I should be glad that I'm mostly just a zombie, and not horribly tortured, except during the panics.
This isn't a very social post. I'm not very social. I cancelled going out to a dance program last night. Couldn't face the whole thing. Now probably the person is really mad at me. I wouldn't blame them, but as a zombie, I can feel guilty, and lousy, but I don't have the energy to try to make it up.
PS I'm going to put this onto the psychology page, cause it isn't at all social.
Honore
Posted by annierose on April 29, 2007, at 12:02:59
In reply to I'm feeling lousy, posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 10:47:47
Sorry to read that you are not feeling good. When sad moods strike, wouldn't it be nice to be able to pinpoint a reason? I know that sort of feeling. Sometimes, going outside my comfort zone helps lift that zombie state. Last weekend when I was feeling overwhelmed, my son said, "mom let's turn that frown upsidedown," and dragged me downstairs. He blasted some music and was singing and dancing and before long, had me laughing and dancing with him. Of course, it didn't last long, but keeping busy is helpful sometimes.
I also find tackling a cleaning project helps me --- then I feel accomplished and proud of a job well done.
I wish I could help more. You have always provided wonderful insight for me when I'm in the dumps about stuff. And I wish I knew just what to say to help life you out of zombiehood into zen.
Posted by zenhussy on April 29, 2007, at 12:57:59
In reply to I'm feeling lousy, posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 10:47:47
Posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 16:21:46
In reply to Re: I'm feeling lousy » Honore, posted by annierose on April 29, 2007, at 12:02:59
Thanks so much, annierose. Knowing that something has helped a little is so nice. I'm usually sure after I've written things.
I should start a project. I could give it a try. You absolutely right-- it would help. And there are a few things I can do.
I so much appreciate the response.
Honore
Posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 16:22:40
In reply to sorry to read this....thinking of you w/ kindness (nm) » Honore, posted by zenhussy on April 29, 2007, at 12:57:59
Thank you, Zen, for your kinds thoughts. Just knowing about them really helps.
Honore
Posted by Declan on April 29, 2007, at 16:50:33
In reply to I'm feeling lousy, posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 10:47:47
Well, I assume you are hard at work at your atlas getting your capitals right.
That should occupy you for a bit.
Posted by Phillipa on April 29, 2007, at 20:03:34
In reply to Re: I'm feeling lousy » Honore, posted by Declan on April 29, 2007, at 16:50:33
So I'm not the only one. Love Phillipa feel like I'm dying seriously.
Posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 20:16:02
In reply to Re: I'm feeling lousy » Honore, posted by Declan on April 29, 2007, at 16:50:33
Well, that project is mostly taken care of. I have to review a few times, but I managed to get 100% on my third or fourth attempt, with a high degree of certainty on most of my answers. Of course, by next week, I'll probably have forgotten most of it.
So, I guess I need a new project. Plus a few more runs at this one.
Honore
Posted by jammerlich on April 30, 2007, at 0:24:24
In reply to Re: I'm feeling lousy » Declan, posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 20:16:02
I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling so badly. I wish you could get back to work 100%. I know that would probably help your spirits a lot. It stinks to not be able to do the things you love to do.
(((Honore)))
Posted by Honore on April 30, 2007, at 10:02:20
In reply to Re: I'm feeling lousy, posted by jammerlich on April 30, 2007, at 0:24:24
Thanks, jammer.
I wonder when that's going to be. They keep changing the point at which it'll be safe. I guess they weren't paying attention when I talked about what I did-- and now when I describe it, they suddenly, are --'Oh-- you can't do that for at least a month"-- which doesn't mean that then they won't say-- "no-- you need to wait another week-- or two."
This wednesday I'm supposed to be able to paint, so I'll try painting, unless I'm too depressed-- which right now I am-- to see the models-- and too demoralized about my complete lack of productivity to push enough to get momentum back. Which I had more of, when I stopped, than I'd ever had in my life.
That's so ironic really. I would never have done this now if I'd known it would be a month to six weeks off.
Maybe I'll feel better later. Something could turn this around, Isuppose. Although I'm in a very resistant, obstinate mood and fighting with everyone around here (ie mostly my sigO)-- who tries to help.
Thanks for thinking of me.
Honore
Posted by Dinah on April 30, 2007, at 13:43:18
In reply to Not working » jammerlich, posted by Honore on April 30, 2007, at 10:02:20
I'm sorry you're feeling rotten. :( I wish I could help. I wish I knew what to say, but my mind's a blank.
Posted by Dinah on April 30, 2007, at 13:43:46
In reply to Not working » jammerlich, posted by Honore on April 30, 2007, at 10:02:20
I miss you. In chat.
No pressure though.
Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on April 30, 2007, at 20:45:54
In reply to I'm feeling lousy, posted by Honore on April 29, 2007, at 10:47:47
honore, I wish I had a flashlight and some tiffany to give you some stained-glass light to punctuate your grey.
I'm kind of overwhelmed right now. I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you,
-Ll
Ever gone into a midieval church/chapel, lay down on the pews and then just stared up? found patterns in the carvings, the columns, the glass, the mosaics, the inlays.
I wish you could see other than grey. (((((little color hugs for you)))))
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