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Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
Went to Therapy yesterday and told him i didnt think i could continue ( fear of falling apart and not being able to function). Told my husband when i got home and we had a big fight. Got on the bike and went to a bar somewhere. I just got out the hospital this morning and i dont know where the bike is ( 2 week old Harley).
I have a broken nose and a black eye and i dont remember a thing.
Posted by Sonya on August 16, 2005, at 10:17:05
In reply to I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
I'm very sorry to hear therapy went poorly yesterday and you might quit. I know it's difficult to talk about painful stuff, but getting it all out may eventually make it seem less painful. Was your husband upset because you quit therapy?
I'm concerned...did you get the broken nose and black eye from a motorcycle accident or as a result of the fight with your husband? I just hope you're safe.
> Went to Therapy yesterday and told him i didnt think i could continue ( fear of falling apart and not being able to function). Told my husband when i got home and we had a big fight. Got on the bike and went to a bar somewhere. I just got out the hospital this morning and i dont know where the bike is ( 2 week old Harley).
> I have a broken nose and a black eye and i dont remember a thing.
Posted by jadah on August 16, 2005, at 19:03:40
In reply to I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
Therapy wont make you fall apart, you will sweetie. Ive been down this road and believe me, it only gets worse. I know you want to better your life or you wouldnt have started therapy in the first place. Keep truckin'
Posted by Poet on August 16, 2005, at 20:27:41
In reply to I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
Hi FlyingKangaroo,
I'm sorry for your injuries, both physical and emotional. I self medicate by drinking, too, no lectures from me on that- ever. A hard time at therapy, and then a fight with your husband, who you needed support from, that's enough to mess anybody up.
For me therapy is hard, not due to a fear of falling apart, but a fear of being dependent. It's scary letting somebody get so close. I've been in therapy for three years and still can't say things that I really need to.
Safe cyber hugs. Please post and let us know how you are doing. You are more important than a Harley (and worth more than they cost!)
Poet
Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 17, 2005, at 2:52:57
In reply to I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
My T took me in right away yesterday and he will be talking with my husband today. I found the bike at a bar unharmed. The bar owner said that i walked outside and passed out and then went into convulsions, They called the ambulance but i came to (b4 ambulance arrived) and was like a caged animal. Four people held me down (guess thats where i got the black eye) Then hospital knocked me out with sedatives and put me in restraints. I have to get back to work today and try to stop this therapy fear from controlling me. I havent worked in more than a week now and Im at risk of losing the business. I know for sure that i cant drink anymore as last month it landed me in the lock-up, last night the hospital, and next time would probably be a cemetary. I guess i just needed to check to see if i was still an alcoholic. Gotta give it my best shot now to stay sober, stop freaking out about falling apart, and get back to work.
Think im finally feeling pathetic enough about myself to change. I sure hope so.
Posted by jadah on August 18, 2005, at 17:43:15
In reply to Re: I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 17, 2005, at 2:52:57
I am in recovery. I had eight years clean and sober but I stopped going to AA.... had to go out and see if I was still an alchoholic. Everything was just like they said it would be at my meetings... it always gets worse never better. My behavior, mentality, tolerance, nothing had changed. I wound up in a horrible situation like you my first night our. Boy, I always did have to find things out the hard way. All I know is that my way doesnt work.
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