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Posted by lamictal on October 31, 2010, at 17:16:40
Been carrying this my whole life. Really couldn't talk to other teenagers about this as it might make me seem to wierd. So I kept it to myself. For those of you who have always been mentally ill it's been like a dark cload over my head. I think it never goes away but you just learn to carry the load.
We argue and debate in here what's the best way to handle this. The best way is what works for you. I don't think there's really a cure but what crutch works best for you. So some build a crutch made of meds and some of supplements. But in the end we try and fix our damaged minds.
So why argue about what's the best road to follow. There's is no best raod. It's just what leads you to the land of remission. So good luck in your lonely journey to the top. It's a heavy load we carry and it's a long way to the promised land.
Posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2010, at 12:34:25
In reply to Heavy Load To Carry, posted by lamictal on October 31, 2010, at 17:16:40
Hi Lamictal,
A heavy load it is. I'm not convinced it has to be lonely. At least that's the piece I'm working on. Do you have people to confide it? I share whenever I feel it's appropriate (that is I have some trust in the person's capacity to appreciate difference and the timing is right). Confiding lightens the load a bit. --As long as someone isn't going to tell me how to cure myself ;)
How do you manage?
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Posted by lamictal on November 1, 2010, at 13:08:50
In reply to Re: Heavy Load To Carry » lamictal, posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2010, at 12:34:25
> Hi Lamictal,
>
> A heavy load it is. I'm not convinced it has to be lonely. At least that's the piece I'm working on. Do you have people to confide it? I share whenever I feel it's appropriate (that is I have some trust in the person's capacity to appreciate difference and the timing is right). Confiding lightens the load a bit. --As long as someone isn't going to tell me how to cure myself ;)
>
> How do you manage?
>
> fbDear Floating
Some family members know of my disability. At times they will make remarks such as are you still in depression. They believe it is something that just ends. Maybe for some but I tell them I am mostly in remission.
I sense a bit of anger or agitation as if I am a slaker looking as if i'm looking for attention and maybe faking an illness. I have chronic depression and will never will end without medication.
It is not a situation that I enjoy. People who are not experiencing this just do not understand. That is why for me it is a heavy and at times a lonely burden. Than God I found drugs that put me in remission. I have added Geodon and that plus the lamictal have put me in an almost full remission.
I was walking in the house today and I was amazed that I was like a normal person. I didn't feel sad and hopeless. I hope that is what most people feel like.
Do you know what I mean? Do you mind sharing your situation. I am grateful that you asked me. That is very kind and thoughtful. Deep sigh
Regards
Queen of L
Posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2010, at 15:24:26
In reply to Re: Heavy Load To Carry » floatingbridge, posted by lamictal on November 1, 2010, at 13:08:50
> Dear Floating
>
> Some family members know of my disability. At times they will make remarks such as are you still in depression. They believe it is something that just ends. Maybe for some but I tell them I am mostly in remission.
>Yeah. Me too. I think for some it's a way of giving positive support. Then again, some people are plain uncomfortable. Depression and MI are elephants in my family's living room. Amongst the siblings there is denial, finger pointing, and righteousness--a very anti-med
family, stiff upper lip, etc. Only one sib and I can really talk. That helps.> I sense a bit of anger or agitation as if I am a slaker looking as if i'm looking for attention and maybe faking an illness. I have chronic depression and will never will end without medication.
>Oh dear. Me too. Right now my MIL is unhinged because I think she finally 'gets' my condition. She has begun to treat me harshly and rudely after many years of amiability. She is very new age
in that she believes people make themselves sick. She treats my FIL with parkensons atrociously. He takes it. I don't. I really could use extended family support, but it's not in the cards.> It is not a situation that I enjoy. People who are not experiencing this just do not
understand. That is why for me it is a heavy and at times a lonely burden. Than God I found drugs that put me in remission. I have added Geodon and that
plus the lamictal have put me in an almost full remission.
>
Near full remission! That is wonderful. Thank goodness you've found good meds, AND that you have worked
towards this. Congratulations :)> I was walking in the house today and I
was amazed that I was like a normal person. I didn't feel sad and hopeless. I
hope that is what most people feel like.
>I think that is how most people feel. I
have felt it for a time when near remission. Feels very good! Enjoy :)> Do you know what I mean? Do you mind sharing your situation. I am grateful that you asked me. That is very
kind and thoughtful. Deep sigh
>
> Regards
> Queen of LHi Queen of L, I'm having a bit of a backslide. Hopefully a med tuneup soon will help. I think my new signature is on. Major Depression, c-ptsd, chronic
fatigue. Now the fatigue is tough to explain, too. Tough for me to accept as
real. That I have times when I'm too tired to sit up and do something I'd like to do. It's very intermittent.You know that depressed people are advised to avoid other depressed
people ;)Are you new here? I don't recall you....
Thank you for asking--it was kind of you, too.
Continuing best wishes for you,
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Posted by lamictal on November 1, 2010, at 17:10:05
In reply to Re: Heavy Load To Carry » lamictal, posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2010, at 12:34:25
> Hi Lamictal,
>
> A heavy load it is. I'm not convinced it has to be lonely. At least that's the piece I'm working on. Do you have people to confide it? I share whenever I feel it's appropriate (that is I have some trust in the person's capacity to appreciate difference and the timing is right). Confiding lightens the load a bit. --As long as someone isn't going to tell me how to cure myself ;)
>
> How do you manage?
>
> fbyes I'm new
Posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2010, at 18:07:45
In reply to Re: Heavy Load To Carry, posted by lamictal on November 1, 2010, at 17:10:05
Well, then, welcome! If you hang around awhile, there are some good friends to be made. Come and go and so on--that's what lots of pb users do.
There is a babblemail feature that allows sending 'private' messages to another member. (I quote private because some people suspect Dr. Bob of reading them. Mine are pretty dull....) So if a member's name is in blue on the upper left of their post, they can give and receive babblemail. It's adjustable under account settings, I believe. Many opt out of this service.
Posted by Conundrum on November 1, 2010, at 22:52:44
In reply to Re: Heavy Load To Carry, posted by lamictal on November 1, 2010, at 17:10:05
> yes I'm newHi and Welcome!
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