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Posted by lostforwards on October 27, 2004, at 20:05:32
I wish I knew what happened to me...I really do.
I have a history of broad base delusional paranoia ( not schizophrenia ), and mild mood swings. Also a history of intense feelings. I personally don't think I'm obsessive but maybe they did. Please note: I was not made aware of what was causing these symptoms..it was like nobody wanted to tell me.Would someone please diagnose me? ( seriously, I was kept in the dark...maybe that was part of the treatment )...
When I was stressed and took my antipsychotic I got even more paranoid on a small scale. I started to think everyone around me was talking about me. I started playing with objects compulsively too. I'd also do stuff like unconsciously pick up things while talking to someone. It's like the med made me worse immediately.. or did it just reveal somethign? I'm not sure but I think the doctors were trying to stress treat me. The staff would make loud noises intentionally while I was on the antipsychotic.
Being put on the med again I got even more stressed out and started doing weirder things. I couldn't look people in the face while I was talking to them. A lot of other weird stuff happened too.
I'm particularly sensitive to the meds and my psychiatrist ( involved in this complicated scheme ) purposely jacked up the dose everytime I'd act like that.
Now I feel totally deadened. I feel like I've been put through a blender. For what purpose!? Were they trying to kill my feelings? What were they trying to do? What was going on?
Posted by Sebastian on October 27, 2004, at 20:34:56
In reply to AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by lostforwards on October 27, 2004, at 20:05:32
They were killing your feelings. That what AP's do, you feel dead. I had no emotion when on AP's, when I came off them all my emotions would flood, and this bacame anoying after awhile. Because you may function better in the world with the AP. On the other hand will experience all your emotions and probably will not be able to do anything else. Like when I don't take the AP, I hide in the house and my mind goes wild, I get trubling and after awhile anoying thoughts. Taking the AP, I function better, pushing all those thoughts away, I admit I will absorb less from conversation, and a little less social, but I have moments where it can seem ok. You do get use to the AP after awhile. I used to think I could go with out it after a while of taking it, and then I would end up in the hospital.
Which AP do you take? I take zyprexa 10 mg.
My guess is you have the same diagnosis as me: scitzoaffective disorder. Dulusional thoughts with psychotic features and depression. Doctors don't like to give a diagnosis, because you will feel a lable. Plus diagnosises can change frequently, or they are just hard to define as one thing or anouther.
Posted by lostforwards on October 28, 2004, at 11:03:07
In reply to Re: AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by Sebastian on October 27, 2004, at 20:34:56
I WAS taking Risperdal. They said I was bipolar and they stuck too it but I think there was something else going on.
I feel crappy OFF the AP after going on it.
I used to be very high functioning...it's just those werid behaviours. I'd even get them when I just really stressed but they weren't as bad.. like I'd just spin things or get paranoid.
Posted by Sebastian on October 28, 2004, at 11:44:28
In reply to Re: AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by lostforwards on October 28, 2004, at 11:03:07
You will probably feel better if you go back on the AP. Unfortunatly thats the only answer.
Posted by lostforwards on October 28, 2004, at 12:00:47
In reply to Re: AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by Sebastian on October 28, 2004, at 11:44:28
I've got pretty bad symptoms of dystonia and TD. I was trying alternative mood stabilizers ( not antidepressants ) before the doctor screwed me up with the APs.
Posted by lostforwards on October 28, 2004, at 12:06:30
In reply to Re: AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by Sebastian on October 28, 2004, at 11:44:28
On top of that the AP makes me more aggressive.. like I explode rather than ruminate on things..
and there's no way I could go up to the high dose the doctor put me on. Additionally my arms don't swing anymore.
Posted by Sebastian on October 30, 2004, at 10:57:14
In reply to Re: AP+stress unveiled weird tendancies, posted by lostforwards on October 28, 2004, at 12:06:30
The AP's are keeping you from feeling down. I use to stop all my AP, and hide for 4 months at a time. Then I would start again and go out in the world. Which AP does your doctor want you on? I take zyprexa which is very sedating, so that I don't verbilize about my thoughts as much. Swinging arms is that energy. You will think a lot more logicaly on an AP, if it works right for you. If it is not you may want to find a med that you like. I tried many different meds that I just instantly knew I didn't like, but when I found a good one I knew I liked it the very first dose. Curently I take zyprexa(7 years), celexa(3 years), bupropion(1.5 years).
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