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Posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 12:57:26
I'll start out by saying that i am severely depressed. I feel no hope for my future. I can't be a functioning mom or wife.I go through cycles. Like i have posted before we thought it was pmdd but i noticed that this starts like a week before my period and goes for a couple of weeks. This cycle seems to be longer though. I am now angry. angry at the world. i change my mind and thinking every 5 minutes and i'm mean to my husband. he really does say all the wrong things though. I have no memory and it sucks.I'm tired and ready to quit the meds. I feel sometimes like i don't give a shit if i'm rude to someone. the other things are i feel very reckless and really don't care what happens to me. then i turn around and want to be nice. but how can i be nice to my husband when in two minutes i'll be bitchy again. i'm really trying to keep my head above water here. what is going on. my pdoc says i don't have mania but aren't those mania symptoms. when i was a teenager i use to get so angry that i would throw things and break things. i once threw something through a window. but now i don't do that cuz i know i'll have to pay for it. i've tried lamictal and it made me so emotional and have more frequent mood swings. i've tried topomax,trileptal and now am on lithium. i actually think i'm worst on mood stabilizers. my pdoc doesn't want to put me on a anti-psychotic cuz he says i'm not psychotic. i'll tell you what though, right now i feel psychotic. maybe it's not the dsm version of it but i do not feel normal. i want to drive off a cliff. but i don't have the gutts to do it. i just try to sleep away the days when i'm like this. my other problem is my future. how can i have hope for a future when i go through this monthly. i can't go to college for anything cuz this will interfere. i can't get a job cuz i can't tell my boss"i'm sorry boss but i'm fealing a wee bit psychotic right now and can't come to work." My brother once said when i was a teenager and in court trying to get released from juvi to just lock her up and throw away the key. i was there for unmanageability. This behavior goes way back. I was given up for adoption and i'm beginning to think it's cuz my birth mother and two sisters were sick and she couldn't handle another sick kid.
Posted by Glydin on July 29, 2004, at 14:44:50
In reply to what is this behavior?, posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 12:57:26
Was there a time you felt more stable? If so, what meds and treatment were you on at that time?
Posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 15:00:44
In reply to Re: what is this behavior?, posted by Glydin on July 29, 2004, at 14:44:50
the thing is that this behavior is monthly and no med that i have ever taken has made it better. I have always been like this. It makes me feel like i'm acting like a spoiled brat or something. after acting so destructive i become extremely depressed. i'm depressed all of the time but there is times that it gets extremely bad.
Posted by Glydin on July 29, 2004, at 15:30:39
In reply to RE:what is this behavior?, posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 15:00:44
I am sorry for your problems. On the "spoiled brat" thing, it isn't as if you choose to have these problems - have you gone through a full physical exam with the tons of blood work and had hormone levels tested since it's cyclic? I'm full of questions, but really have no good answers - wish I did!
Posted by crazychickuk on July 30, 2004, at 6:25:24
In reply to RE:what is this behavior?, posted by Glydin on July 29, 2004, at 15:30:39
get your hormones checked, and maybe try the pill in the mean time... many many women like you...
Posted by Sad Panda on July 30, 2004, at 10:57:05
In reply to what is this behavior?, posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 12:57:26
> I'll start out by saying that i am severely depressed. I feel no hope for my future. I can't be a functioning mom or wife.I go through cycles. Like i have posted before we thought it was pmdd but i noticed that this starts like a week before my period and goes for a couple of weeks. This cycle seems to be longer though. I am now angry. angry at the world. i change my mind and thinking every 5 minutes and i'm mean to my husband. he really does say all the wrong things though. I have no memory and it sucks.I'm tired and ready to quit the meds. I feel sometimes like i don't give a shit if i'm rude to someone. the other things are i feel very reckless and really don't care what happens to me. then i turn around and want to be nice. but how can i be nice to my husband when in two minutes i'll be bitchy again. i'm really trying to keep my head above water here. what is going on. my pdoc says i don't have mania but aren't those mania symptoms. when i was a teenager i use to get so angry that i would throw things and break things. i once threw something through a window. but now i don't do that cuz i know i'll have to pay for it. i've tried lamictal and it made me so emotional and have more frequent mood swings. i've tried topomax,trileptal and now am on lithium. i actually think i'm worst on mood stabilizers. my pdoc doesn't want to put me on a anti-psychotic cuz he says i'm not psychotic. i'll tell you what though, right now i feel psychotic. maybe it's not the dsm version of it but i do not feel normal. i want to drive off a cliff. but i don't have the gutts to do it. i just try to sleep away the days when i'm like this. my other problem is my future. how can i have hope for a future when i go through this monthly. i can't go to college for anything cuz this will interfere. i can't get a job cuz i can't tell my boss"i'm sorry boss but i'm fealing a wee bit psychotic right now and can't come to work." My brother once said when i was a teenager and in court trying to get released from juvi to just lock her up and throw away the key. i was there for unmanageability. This behavior goes way back. I was given up for adoption and i'm beginning to think it's cuz my birth mother and two sisters were sick and she couldn't handle another sick kid.
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>These are all 'just' symptoms of depression exasperated by your monthy cycle. As the others have stated, get your hormone levels checked & consider going off or on the pill.
What AD's have you tried so far? I would avoid the mood stabilizers & antipsychotics because they won't help you.
Cheers,
Panda.
Posted by pablo1 on July 30, 2004, at 13:16:34
In reply to what is this behavior?, posted by 4mygrls on July 29, 2004, at 12:57:26
The spoiled brat thing could possibly be ADD. Some ADD kids are unmaneageable like that.
Just a thought.
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