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Posted by LynneDa on June 10, 2004, at 15:01:54
In reply to Re: Lexapro Wearing off after a year?, posted by MoTucker on June 10, 2004, at 14:56:28
M.T. & others -
I know this is getting a bit personal, but for me I just need a lot more foreplay. That helped and also created more intimacy (which of course we like almost as much as the actual act!). It was hard to talk about it at first and to get him to be okay with it . . . but it eventually worked!
Good luck!~ Lynne
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I hear you. It's like I could take it or leave it. If single I'd be more than fine.
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> I guess Lex has *less* sexual side-effects... but definitely not *none*. I wonder if its certain medicines that are more likely to cause the effects, or if it is certain people who are more prone experience sexual side-effects regardless of the medicine.
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> In my relationship the Lex makes it so I don't miss the sex, but I miss the intimacy still. I just don't feel connected to him in exactly the same way when we haven't had sex in weeks. So I have to force myself to get into it so I can have that closeness... I don't like it... but I don't see a way around it, either.
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> M.T.
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Posted by mystic on June 11, 2004, at 8:57:42
In reply to Re: New to Lexapro and feeling awful » jjana, posted by worrywort on May 13, 2003, at 12:43:06
Tweek..how goes the battle...are you on 5mgs is that working ok for you..just checking in..Mystic
Posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:32:23
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by Mrs. C on June 5, 2004, at 18:55:43
Hi all im a new lex user,
i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sighWithin an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
Posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 9:46:31
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:32:23
Hi Nicko and welcome!
What you are feeling is pretty normal!! It may take a couple of weeks for your brain and body to sort everything out. You're experiencing the "tired but wired" syndrome and the weird panic attacks that are only your brain trying to adjust.One suggestion is to take something to help you sleep at night - an antihistamine or Tylenol PM, melatonin, stuff like that. A good night's sleep definitely helps! If the anxiety/panic attacks are too rough, see if your doctor will prescribe something mild just to get you through the initial side effects. If you don't want to take another med, there are herbal remedies that might help you relax right now. You can find those on the babble alternative site. I used to use this lavender/vanilla spray I found at Bath & Body and it relaxed me a bit. I also used to smell this essential oil with roses in it called "Joy" and that also helped me focus and relax. Get a massage, take a warm bath, exercise - whatever you have to do that can help you calm down and focus on anything but those anxious feelings! Do you have someone in your home who knows what you are going through? Talk to them about it too.
I know you feel like quitting . . . we all did! But if you can get through this week and next, I promise you will start feeling better! If your symptoms are too severe, maybe cut down to 5mg for a few weeks then go up to 10mg. Talk to your doctor and see what ideas he/she has for you.
By the way, where are you that it is night? (It's 9:30 in the morning where I am!).
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Hi all im a new lex user,
> i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sigh
>
> Within an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
>
> Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
Posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:53:01
In reply to Re: New Lex user » nicko, posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 9:46:31
Ty for the welome lynne, im feeling pretty crap right now, depressed and anxious, it nearly 1am here, in Aussie land, the dr gave me some mild sedatives as i was told its sometimes hard to sleep for the first few days, but im freaked to take them too
> Hi Nicko and welcome!
> What you are feeling is pretty normal!! It may take a couple of weeks for your brain and body to sort everything out. You're experiencing the "tired but wired" syndrome and the weird panic attacks that are only your brain trying to adjust.
>
> One suggestion is to take something to help you sleep at night - an antihistamine or Tylenol PM, melatonin, stuff like that. A good night's sleep definitely helps! If the anxiety/panic attacks are too rough, see if your doctor will prescribe something mild just to get you through the initial side effects. If you don't want to take another med, there are herbal remedies that might help you relax right now. You can find those on the babble alternative site. I used to use this lavender/vanilla spray I found at Bath & Body and it relaxed me a bit. I also used to smell this essential oil with roses in it called "Joy" and that also helped me focus and relax. Get a massage, take a warm bath, exercise - whatever you have to do that can help you calm down and focus on anything but those anxious feelings! Do you have someone in your home who knows what you are going through? Talk to them about it too.
>
> I know you feel like quitting . . . we all did! But if you can get through this week and next, I promise you will start feeling better! If your symptoms are too severe, maybe cut down to 5mg for a few weeks then go up to 10mg. Talk to your doctor and see what ideas he/she has for you.
>
> By the way, where are you that it is night? (It's 9:30 in the morning where I am!).
> ~ Lynne
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> Hi all im a new lex user,
> > i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sigh
> >
> > Within an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
> >
> > Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
>
>
Posted by mystic on June 11, 2004, at 9:58:40
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:53:01
Nicko..You have come to the right place...everyone in here is here to help you and that is what you will get help..support..acceptance..knowledge.and so much more...
I have been on lex for about 15 weeks and at first you do get anxious and feel like you are jumping out of your skin..I'm very very med phobic so took me about 2 months to take that first pill so you are doing good...You can also take Xanax or something like that even though I'm med phobic I did take that for the first couple of weeks to counter act the anxiousness..My dr wanted me to take it longer as to not suffer but too stubborn...
Just keep posting and know that there is always somewhere there for you..take care and hope today is a better day for you!!!!!!!!!!!!....mystic
Posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 10:06:22
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:53:01
I understand. I can promise you sleep is the best remedy right now. If you are fearful of taking meds, you probably are not the type to get addicted to them! I took Ambien for 7 days then got off of them cuz I liked them too much! But, they did break my insomnia cycle. Maybe just cut the sedative in half? You have to do something for yourself so you can get through this. You can do it!!! It'll be okay. Just try it one night. If it doesn't work, then go on to something else!
~ Lynne
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Ty for the welome lynne, im feeling pretty crap right now, depressed and anxious, it nearly 1am here, in Aussie land, the dr gave me some mild sedatives as i was told its sometimes hard to sleep for the first few days, but im freaked to take them too
Posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 10:13:08
In reply to Re: New Lex user » nicko, posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 10:06:22
Thanks Lynne and mystic, it means alot to me right now! It just sucks that i was basically ok before i started this and now everything is so much worse, i don't get that, it doesnt make sense to me.
i think will take a sedative cause im sick of thinking, ive had enough for one day
> I understand. I can promise you sleep is the best remedy right now. If you are fearful of taking meds, you probably are not the type to get addicted to them! I took Ambien for 7 days then got off of them cuz I liked them too much! But, they did break my insomnia cycle. Maybe just cut the sedative in half? You have to do something for yourself so you can get through this. You can do it!!! It'll be okay. Just try it one night. If it doesn't work, then go on to something else!
> ~ Lynne
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> Ty for the welome lynne, im feeling pretty crap right now, depressed and anxious, it nearly 1am here, in Aussie land, the dr gave me some mild sedatives as i was told its sometimes hard to sleep for the first few days, but im freaked to take them too
>
>
Posted by h on June 11, 2004, at 10:14:40
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:32:23
> Hi all im a new lex user,
> i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sigh
>
> Within an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
>
> Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
Hey there! I'm new too. I felt like I was getting poisoned when I started a few weeks ago on my first 10 mg dose. I called my dr and said I can't take this stuff, it's making me sleepy and nauseous and sick. He suggested I cut the pills in half. I did better than that: I cut them in quarters and took just those (2.5 mg) for the first week. Then up to a half. Then 3/4. Now I'm at a whole and it does make a difference. I would talk to your dr about trying that. After all, if the point is to stay on the med, it's better to ramp up slowly. Best to you! h
Posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 10:16:50
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 10:13:08
Good luck Nicko, let us know how you're doing tomorrow!
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Thanks Lynne and mystic, it means alot to me right now! It just sucks that i was basically ok before i started this and now everything is so much worse, i don't get that, it doesnt make sense to me.
> i think will take a sedative cause im sick of thinking, ive had enough for one day
>
>
Posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 10:33:14
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by h on June 11, 2004, at 10:14:40
How did that go? did you feel much better doing it that way? oh yeah im still awake lol, did it make a huge difference? i cant see or speak to my dr till tuesday, i need to try something or i will just go off them.
>
> Hey there! I'm new too. I felt like I was getting poisoned when I started a few weeks ago on my first 10 mg dose. I called my dr and said I can't take this stuff, it's making me sleepy and nauseous and sick. He suggested I cut the pills in half. I did better than that: I cut them in quarters and took just those (2.5 mg) for the first week. Then up to a half. Then 3/4. Now I'm at a whole and it does make a difference. I would talk to your dr about trying that. After all, if the point is to stay on the med, it's better to ramp up slowly. Best to you! h
>
>
Posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 10:48:22
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:32:23
I know exactly how you feel! I started at 10 mg and went through the exact same thing. Cut it in half, then decided to stop taking it until I saw my gp this past Monday. I'm started taking it again, and am at 5 mg now, day 3. Still having trouble with it, but it's much easier to deal with than the 10 mg! The morning anxiety is enough to make me want to quit taking it, especially since I'm still having trouble accepting the medication, but I'm gonna try to stay on at least a couple more weeks! I have a bottle of clonazepam (klonopin), have been trying to avoid taking it, even though I should probably take it for a little while. But if I can get through this, then anyone can! :)
> Hi all im a new lex user,
> i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sigh
>
> Within an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
>
> Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
Posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 10:58:07
In reply to RE::: Tweek, posted by mystic on June 11, 2004, at 8:57:42
The 5 mg is easier w/ side effects than when I started the 10 mg, but still having bad morning anxiety. It's really almost unbearable, but I'm not comfortable taking a sedative in the morning before I drive to work. I wake up about 2 hours before my alarm goes off all panicky, worrying about everything, and if and when I drift back off to sleep, it's not restful at all. I hope this stops soon...
> Tweek..how goes the battle...are you on 5mgs is that working ok for you..just checking in..Mystic
Posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 11:02:50
In reply to RE::: Tweek » mystic, posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 10:58:07
Hi Tweek - Have you tried Melatonin to help you sleep? I find that if I take 1/2 of a 3mg dose I can sleep all the way to the alarm. If I remember to take it by 9pm (instead of 11pm when I go to bed!), I'm not groggy in the morning. You'd have to play with the dosage and times a bit. But, Melatonin is natural so maybe it would be easier to take. It may help you sleep all the way through and maybe you won't feel so much anxiety when you wake up. Just a thought!
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>The 5 mg is easier w/ side effects than when I started the 10 mg, but still having bad morning anxiety. It's really almost unbearable, but I'm not comfortable taking a sedative in the morning before I drive to work. I wake up about 2 hours before my alarm goes off all panicky, worrying about everything, and if and when I drift back off to sleep, it's not restful at all. I hope this stops soon...
>
> > Tweek..how goes the battle...are you on 5mgs is that working ok for you..just checking in..Mystic
>
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Posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 11:36:20
In reply to Re: New Lex user » nicko, posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 10:16:50
Im still here lol 2.30am YAY not, i havent taking the sedative yet, still a bit nervous, but i will, its saturday so if i sleep the whole day away it wont matter.lol do you think i could cut my medication down? i cant speak to my doc till tuesday and i honestly can;t bare to take it again later on today:(
> Good luck Nicko, let us know how you're doing tomorrow!
> ~ Lynne
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> Thanks Lynne and mystic, it means alot to me right now! It just sucks that i was basically ok before i started this and now everything is so much worse, i don't get that, it doesnt make sense to me.
> > i think will take a sedative cause im sick of thinking, ive had enough for one day
> >
> >
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Posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 12:59:00
In reply to RE::: Tweek » Tweek, posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 11:02:50
I think I actually considered it a long time ago. Can you recommend a good brand of Melatonin? I've heard some brands aren't as good, like the Target/Walmart brands, but not sure. Way back when I started the Paxil, I would take a whole clonazepam (.5 mg) before I went to bed, and it seemed to work, but I'm more reluctant now. I'd rather go the natural route as much as possible!
> Hi Tweek - Have you tried Melatonin to help you sleep? I find that if I take 1/2 of a 3mg dose I can sleep all the way to the alarm. If I remember to take it by 9pm (instead of 11pm when I go to bed!), I'm not groggy in the morning. You'd have to play with the dosage and times a bit. But, Melatonin is natural so maybe it would be easier to take. It may help you sleep all the way through and maybe you won't feel so much anxiety when you wake up. Just a thought!
> ~ Lynne
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Posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 13:05:50
In reply to RE::: Tweek » LynneDa, posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 12:59:00
Well, actually, I think I got mine at Wal-Mart! I think it's Sundown or something like that? You can buy it in 1mg tablets as well as 3mg. Good luck!
~ Lynne
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I think I actually considered it a long time ago. Can you recommend a good brand of Melatonin? I've heard some brands aren't as good, like the Target/Walmart brands, but not sure. Way back when I started the Paxil, I would take a whole clonazepam (.5 mg) before I went to bed, and it seemed to work, but I'm more reluctant now. I'd rather go the natural route as much as possible!
>
> > Hi Tweek - Have you tried Melatonin to help you sleep? I find that if I take 1/2 of a 3mg dose I can sleep all the way to the alarm. If I remember to take it by 9pm (instead of 11pm when I go to bed!), I'm not groggy in the morning. You'd have to play with the dosage and times a bit. But, Melatonin is natural so maybe it would be easier to take. It may help you sleep all the way through and maybe you won't feel so much anxiety when you wake up. Just a thought!
> > ~ Lynne
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Posted by Tweek on June 11, 2004, at 13:20:17
In reply to RE::: Tweek » Tweek, posted by LynneDa on June 11, 2004, at 13:05:50
Hmmm, it's worth a shot! Can't wait to start therapy next week--hopefully it will help! Actually, it's one of the few things I'm pretty confident about. I know the meds alone won't fix my issues; I need to be able to deal with them on my own in a healthy way. In the meantime, proper sleep will help a bit, I'm sure! One other question, though. Has anyone noticed themselves a bit thirstier when starting the Lexapro? I can't seem to stop drinking water!
> Well, actually, I think I got mine at Wal-Mart! I think it's Sundown or something like that? You can buy it in 1mg tablets as well as 3mg. Good luck!
> ~ Lynne
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Posted by 2gethappy on June 11, 2004, at 13:40:18
In reply to Re: New Lex user, posted by nicko on June 11, 2004, at 9:32:23
I just read your posts. I'm on day 15 of Lexapro...also for anxiety (moderate) and very mild depression. I have suffered panic disorder in the past and am VERY med phobic, so starting was scary for me, too.
I once tried Zoloft and it made me 'tired but wired' and I panicked and stopped taking it two days into it.
This time, when my new doc asked me to try Lexapro, I was really freaked, but READY to FEEL BETTER. So, I broke the pills in half and took 5mg the first 5 days. I still was very wired, yet tired those first days. And got a headache every day, too. But day 6 I felt great! Like I hadn't taken anything! So, I upped to 10 mg the next day and have been doing 10 mg ever since.
The first few days, I was so scared, I took a half a xanax with my Lexapro in the morning and a whole xanax at bedtime. But, that left me WAY too exhausted, so then I switched to just taking a xanax at bedtime. I'm still taking a xanax every night.
The first 2 nights, even with the xanax, I woke up a few times, but that quickly passed and I was so calm on the xanax that I easily went back to sleep.
It seems that most people get through the initial junk of Lexapro a lot faster than with other anti-d's so don't give up. And don't try to convince yourself that you were fine before so you should just quit...because if you were fine, you wouldn't have had the courage to take that first pill...you know? You obviously felt you were suffering the effects of the anxiety and depression.
Two weeks into it and I am feeling so much more ALIVE than I have in a longgggg time and so free from the anxiety! It is amazing!
K
> Hi all im a new lex user,
> i have been little down for a few months now and went to the dr and was told i have mild anxiety and mild depression, i took my first LEX tablet this afternoon 10mg and i have to say it took alot, i didn't want too, i almost had to force it down. sigh
>
> Within an hour or so of taking it, i felt funny, tired but unable to sleep, and alittle spaced out and TENSE, i had only slept a couple of hours the night before so i know that didn't help, so i tried to lay down and i feel asleep for about 40 minutes and when i woke i was in a major panic, i jumped out of bed and turned the light and felt horrible and took me almost 2 hours to calm down, the whole time ive felt my heart pumping ,racing, im sure you know the sensation im talking about, i felt like i was going mad!
>
> Its now night time here and im too scared to go to sleep, im not tired yet anyway, but i don't want to feel that again, i don't think I'll take it anymore if its going to make me like this, can you guys offer any help or something :(
Posted by mystic on June 11, 2004, at 16:00:24
In reply to Re: New Lex user--NICKO, posted by 2gethappy on June 11, 2004, at 13:40:18
Posted by Dr. Bob on June 11, 2004, at 23:37:52
In reply to RE: please be civil » Dr. Bob, posted by Tweek on June 10, 2004, at 11:59:14
Posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 0:44:39
In reply to RE: thanks (nm) » Tweek, posted by Dr. Bob on June 11, 2004, at 23:37:52
hey all im back, first question i want to know is, i just looked at my packet again and it says laxapro, not lexapro, same thing or different? LOL
thanks for your advice so far, i ended up taking a sedative lastnight (well i should say this morning) it helped but i still woke up many times but went back to sleep.when i finally decided to get up i felt terrible, massive headache, blocked nose, and worrying about everything and anything i couldn't eat and my mouth is dry, yeah i am complaining alittle too much, but i just needed to get it off my chest, i honestly feel like im going insane and all i keep thinking about is that little pill and the fact that i don't want to take it anymore, My anxiety would be about 9 just thinking about it, i wonder if its doing me more harm then good.
Ok i guess its time to come clean with myself and you guys whats really making things worse, i have a family member whom i care for and have for basically my whole life who suffers schizophrenia, its obviously in my genes so i worry about it, I've discussed that with dr's before, what are my chances most say low about 2% etc but that doesn't make me feel better, ive been told I would have shown symptoms years ago, im in my early 30s now.
What makes it real tough is i know how they think, what they worry about, what stresses them and what doesn't, if that makes sense, for example i know a certain situation would make them feel uneasy, or a horror movie would make then feel its possible true or related to them some how, so then i wonder am i feeling that too? or am i just saying that to myself? god its hard to explain! hope you guys can understand what I am trying to say, that's why taking this drug is making me feel so uneasy, i feel like it will trigger that sleeping GENE i have.sigh, lastnights panic i had scared shit out of me, i thought here i go, im going mad, I think this constant worry is what started my mild depression in the first place, that plus i had many month of ill health.Sorry for the long post guys, I just needed to get some things off my mind, its kinda coming time to take the tablet again and i don't think i can do it..*cries* this feeling really sucks.
Posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 4:35:03
In reply to RE: thanks, posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 0:44:39
> hey all im back, first question i want to know is, i just looked at my packet again and it says laxapro, not lexapro, same thing or different? LOL
>
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> thanks for your advice so far, i ended up taking a sedative lastnight (well i should say this morning) it helped but i still woke up many times but went back to sleep.
>
> when i finally decided to get up i felt terrible, massive headache, blocked nose, and worrying about everything and anything i couldn't eat and my mouth is dry, yeah i am complaining alittle too much, but i just needed to get it off my chest, i honestly feel like im going insane and all i keep thinking about is that little pill and the fact that i don't want to take it anymore, My anxiety would be about 9 just thinking about it, i wonder if its doing me more harm then good.
>
> Ok i guess its time to come clean with myself and you guys whats really making things worse, i have a family member whom i care for and have for basically my whole life who suffers schizophrenia, its obviously in my genes so i worry about it, I've discussed that with dr's before, what are my chances most say low about 2% etc but that doesn't make me feel better, ive been told I would have shown symptoms years ago, im in my early 30s now.
> What makes it real tough is i know how they think, what they worry about, what stresses them and what doesn't, if that makes sense, for example i know a certain situation would make them feel uneasy, or a horror movie would make then feel its possible true or related to them some how, so then i wonder am i feeling that too? or am i just saying that to myself? god its hard to explain! hope you guys can understand what I am trying to say, that's why taking this drug is making me feel so uneasy, i feel like it will trigger that sleeping GENE i have.sigh, lastnights panic i had scared shit out of me, i thought here i go, im going mad, I think this constant worry is what started my mild depression in the first place, that plus i had many month of ill health.
>
> Sorry for the long post guys, I just needed to get some things off my mind, its kinda coming time to take the tablet again and i don't think i can do it..*cries* this feeling really sucks.Ok the best i could do was take a 1/4 i know i shouldn't self medicate but that is all i could do considering my anxious state, that or nothing.LOL
This time i said, Nopeeeeee not gonna think about it, i took it and come on the pc and started chatting to a friend on chat. but then i started i started to feel so called (high) again, dizzy (light headed) sleepy etc.
When that starts i get anxious even more, i feel not in control if that makes sense, See ive never taking any drugs in my life and i rarely drank because i hate the feeling of having no control.(wow i think im a control freak) lol
I then start thinking and thinking, wondering what if i lose control and do something stupid or silly, i didn't help that i did some web surfing and read that some people taking these sorts of anti depressant drugs acted violently, then i get myself more anxious and worried for thinking that, i go through omg did i really think that? why? and then i feel my face getting flushed and my heart racing and here we go again. I know it all boils down to the fact that ive lived with a schizophrenic family member my whole life and have heard their fear after fear of this that and the other thing happening, and offcourse i know none of it is true, but if i think something silly, like i did above, i start getting really tense thinking omg i have it, does that make any sense what so ever?
Posted by ramsea on June 12, 2004, at 6:00:23
In reply to RE: thanks, posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 4:35:03
You make perfect sense. I have had a similar situation. The thing is, I have had to accept that my condition is not the same as my family member's. If Lexapro caused you to have disordered psychosis it would still be a side effect of the medicine--maybe even more a drug-induced manic response rather than schizophrenic.
Your doctors are right of course--most people display schizophrenia before age 30. But there is a thing called psuedo-schizophrnia, or something like that. This describes a person who displayed a kinship with their close partner or family member who suffered a severe, possibly delusional and/or hallucinatory disorder, which led the non-schizophrenic person to act/think in some likeness to their schizophrenic partner. But it is easy to see that it's an anxiety reaction rather than being schizophrenia. The non-schizophrenic person is much more "in touch" in every way. They aren't faking, it's just due to closeness and maybe over-empathy, maybe even guilt. Or some other factors. But it isn't due to actual psychosis.
Have you ever considered working specifically on this belief system that you've acquired from your carework with a person suffering from a severe thought disorder (i.e. severe and chronic schizophrenia)??
I mean this in the nicest way, not trying to be critical, as I am the last person on earth to feel critical of mental health problems. I've been truly helped by cognitive behvioral type therapy, also dialectical therapy. It's very specific to your own thinking patterns and how those patterns are not helping you live as fully and well. DBT is supposedly for so-called "personality disorders", but can help anyone with a health or adjustment problem. It gives practical tools for sorting out one's disturbing and unhelpful thoughts.
I really recommend it. Even a life coach can be a help once you get the medical side of your severe anxiety under control. Maybe you can find ways to put a better barrier up. Not lacking in care and love, but just taking care of your own separate, individual identity.
If you started doing the thinking exercises, along with the medicine if it proves helpful, you might get a new toolbox for working matters through more easily. You've obviously had a lot of stress, and careworkers are documented now as being very suseptible to health problems themselves, including anxiety/depression. You;ve been taking care of someone but it sounds like you deserve and require some TLC yourself. It's just an idea. Wishing you relief.
Posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 9:20:14
In reply to RE: thanks, posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 4:35:03
Ok me again, i have the most serve migraine you can imagine at the moment, i can hardly type this i still feel out of it, But after just 1 and 1/4 tablet ive decided enough is enough, i know most people will say stick with it, it'll get better etc but i can't do it anymore, its not for me and if its this hard to get on it, god only knows how you can get off it in 6 months time.
I mean to be honest i only have mild depression and mild anxiety, i had more great days and less bad ones, i think dr's are too quick to use meds some times, the fact that i really didn't want meds hasn't helped and that fact that it has increased my anxiety, I'm getting scared easy by noises etc something ive never had, plus is making me feel mentally ill rather then better, scared to sleep cause of the panic attack it gave me, its not worth it to me, atleast before i could sleep without problems,
I feel i need some help no doubt, but i think most of my issues need to be spoken about rather then covered up, i might even give some natural therapy a go, if after a few weeks i feel worse, i will have to seriously consider the drugs, but i feel i need to give it a go first.
thanks again everyone, you have been great!lastly, im assuming after only 1 and 1/4 tablets i wont suffer any withdrawal systems right?
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