Posted by Verloren on May 31, 2010, at 6:40:11
In reply to Sad, Angry, Bitter, Crying and can't find the Pro, posted by Verloren on May 29, 2010, at 5:41:12
Well today is my last day here. If I can somehow survive today, I'll be ok.
Was not able to go home earlier because of the additional flight costs. But did manage to spend time with friends which gave me the opportunity to escape the situation for a while.
Next time I will Definitely not go! Lesson learned! My grandmother and I get along well but there are varying annoyances that come between us from time to time. Like where she lives, for example. She stays in a terribly crime-infested portion of town and there were people actually shooting at each other Friday night. That is also why I wished I couldve gotten a hotel room. I do not want to be an innocent bystander who gets hit walking from the car!
I hate that she lives this way in this neighborhood and expects me to visit and stay with her where it is not safe.
I did not call Ada. I really thought I would but something in me wants to show her that I can handle myself in these situations without needing to turn to her. I want her to believe I can function on my own without having to hear her voice to get me through. And I am afraid of being seen as the difficult patient with constant needs.
Thank you all for your supportive words and thoughts. I really need that now.
-Verloren
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