Posted by obsidian on August 15, 2010, at 11:03:31
In reply to It's really over and miss my t so much :-(, posted by healingmysoul on August 13, 2010, at 20:39:50
You know, one of the reasons I really hesitate to contact my T, even though he says I can, is that I wonder how it is that he could be "there" for me when I need it, all the time.
It's a bit of grieving I guess, when they go away, for what we really can't count on totally, for being "abandoned".
There's the anger in it too...and then I am afraid that he will get angry at me for asking for more than I know can be, someone there for you all the time.
So, I think I will exhaust him, and he'll shut the door. I know that when I've needed it early on, someone there when I was really upset, that they weren't there, even angrily rejecting, and so I expect it still.
and so I really pray that he has some distance from it, can handle the neediness of it, without retaliation.
I'm better at intellectualizing it, horrible at the feelings of it.
Anyway...my point, I guess, I know I had one ;-)
is that I hope you can talk to T again, maybe send him an email about the feelings behind the termination email? I hope he can respond in some way, eventually.
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