Posted by susan47 on September 19, 2008, at 13:13:18
In reply to Have you ever told your therapist... (trigger), posted by DAisym on September 15, 2008, at 21:15:13
> ..."I hate you!" ???
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> I felt like a teenager -- "Go away! Please don't leave me!"
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> He told me that I had to remember, I had to know what happened way back when and I had to hold and honor the pain of my younger parts. And he said he had to know with me - that telling was the right thing to do so I'm not alone anymore. And then he looked me straight in the eye and said, "and you have to stay alive. I can't let you give up, as much as you want to kill off all this pain."
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> So I sobbed and told him I hated him for that. He said fine, he could take my anger. But he looked so sad.
> That was last Thursday. We've talked everyday since. He hasn't pulled back at all. But I feel like a heel for saying it.
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> If you've said it, what did your therapist say or do? If you wanted to and didn't say it, did you say something else instead?
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> Have I ever said that I think Therapy is really hard work?You're lucky to have a therapist who can handle your feelings very well.
I told my Therapist that I hated him but it was over the telephone, and a few weeks later he dumped me for my transference.
I'm still sinking, that was a few years ago. Every day is a struggle. I don't know what happened to me.
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