Posted by sam K on September 13, 2008, at 12:37:55
I originally posted this in newbies, but I want more people to read it.
Since Im a bit bored and Ive always wanted to tell someone about my life Im gona write about it now.
Well I think I was born behind in the game of life, with some brain crap from my dad. Throughout childhood my dad was my worst enemy and I hated him. He picked on me and made me feel bad. So as I grew up I became more and more miserable.
When I was 14 I did alot of drugs. Weed, magic mushrooms and lsd. Thats when I started to go down the shi**er.
So one day when I was 14 I decided to take some acid. The trip was ok I guess. I woke up the next morning still tripping. Everything was different. I couldnt seem to dress correctly and I headed off to school. I wanted to cry all day. That was not like me at all. I didnt say anything to anyone. I was one the the most popular kids in school and then I became very very quiet.
Well long story short I developed something called HPPD (hallucinagin persisting perception disorder) and also very very severe depression. WOW IT WAS TERRIBLE. THE KIND THAT RIPS YOUR SOUL APART AND TEARS YOUR HEART. I cried everyday for a year.
Throughout that year I got very interested in meditation and spiritual stuff like buddahism. I became obsessed to the point of disaster.
Next thing you know, I start feeling a deep peace inside of me.. I was still depressed as hell... BUT I seemed to not care as much. I kept getting tastes of this POWERFUL PEACE.
I BECAME ENLIGHTENED!!!!!.. a spiritual development i guess.
VERY BIG DEAL.So here I am now years later at 17, enlightened, going through life EFFORTLESSLY. I still suffer from depression and anxiety.. but I am getting so much better everyday.
I have a spirtually enlightened doctor, and he is my best friend. He has filled the hole in my heart that my DAD F**** up.
poster:sam K
thread:851801
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