Posted by rskontos on December 7, 2007, at 22:40:37
In reply to Re: Any ideas what this might mean/possible trigge, posted by muffled on December 7, 2007, at 15:50:19
Rsk, *you* who wrote the last post bout how there's not a boss. is this an adult you?
**Yes, I think so although parts of what I wrote I had to re-read to make sure.....I was mostly there......
Who is observing and knowing there is a teen starting fight with your son?
** Adult me is in the background, which I can do some but can't control or take back control I can only observe. Mostly like from far far far away. I am only remotely aware. If that makes sense. I used to not know. ONly lately do I know.
Can the parts talk together at all?*No not yet but I try. I can listen mostly. but adult me can't always remember.
How do you communicate?**Afterwards, if I was able to remotely stay I heard was happened. the one that used to be boss I went away completely when she was in charge. She was smart and she was in charge. maybe that is why. If I stay then she doesn't come. I don't know right now.
See for me it is FAR easier to try and relax and empty my mind, and then I do it on the computer. I just type fast w/o worrying bout mistakes and the words flow. I can 'hear' them then and write them. I can even have conversations in this way, when its someone else talking I just start a new paragraph. Then after, when noone is speaking, then I read and try to figger out maybe who was saying what etc. I think there has been(though this thot disturbs me alot)communication w/o *me*, this main me that seems to be mostly around, amongst themselves. But I suspect that it is limited. I think the others are fairly aware there's others, but oddly they speak thru me somehow. I don't really understand.
**Yes some of mine oddly speak through me.... but not all. Some I go away completely and don't know anything and lose time and just wake up. That happened with T twice and happens all the time other places. Lately the one I don't like that takes over I can stay and she talks through me(good way to describe it ) but I can't control what she says.
But anyhow, I wonder if you could figger who the 'main you' is, and if maybe this 'main you' can, if not be the boss, maybe it can be the 'coordinator' of communication?
Just a thot.**This is a good thought and what I am suppose to figure out how. This is hard.
I am going to try to do your writing thing which is something T told me to do too but to also answer them back in writing when I notice something they write. she says it is not uncommon while I am writing that they might add stuff. that switching can occur that fast. This is why I am sharing so much of it now. It is my journal of what is going on. And I print it and add it to my journal. I might show her one day. rsk
PS. On the way home from picking up my son, teen came out and my son says here we go again with this behavior. He recognized I was different and I could feel her, I think she likes to be around him too. He plays the right music etc. Except when he is in a bad mood. Then they will fight. Today though he was in a good mood and things went ok. I don't know, I just felt the change and when I came back my head hurt. I know when I am back. Man this is confusing.
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