Posted by TherapyGirl on October 31, 2007, at 20:11:23
In reply to Re: Two sessions this week **Triggers** » TherapyGirl, posted by Dinah on October 31, 2007, at 18:49:36
Thanks, Dinah.
You describe it perfectly. And part of my brain can read it and know it's true. Then there's the other part. It's a little bit like being in the early stages of Alzheimer's. Every now and then I peak through.
But I really can't do this for much longer. Every single time takes a bigger toll. My PCP agreed with me that antidepressants (even the newer ones) are probably dangerous for me. Her theory (and God knows, she's the first doctor who has actually shared a theory with me about my bad reactions to antidepressants) is that I am more sensitive than most people to serotonin. So that even a little bit over the right amount has a negative effect on my brain. It's like I'm ODing on serotonin.
So that makes it all seem that much harder. I am still forcing myself to exercise and go to work, but at some point that stuff will stop, too.
God I hate this. I hate my life. And sometimes I hate my T for not just letting me go.
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