Posted by Dinah on September 28, 2007, at 22:42:38
In reply to I'm not feeling well, posted by Dinah on September 27, 2007, at 2:30:14
and thank you. I really appreciate all your thoughts.
My blood sugar's been a bit off since my binge, and I had a mild ear infection. Plus the constant stimulation of the puppy and the usual work stress made worse by the fact that it's been so hard for me to work when I'm sick.
But I think I'm beginning to realize that my experiences with the puppy are also bringing up a lot of feelings from my adolescence. Not so nice feelings. Feelings I'm ashamed of. My therapist says you don't have to feel ashamed of feelings, and I know I say that to others. But it's hard to apply to myself.
I told my therapist today that I ought to quit seeing him for at least a while, because I just can't seem to remember who he is to me. And he said that even if I couldn't remember who he is to me, that he could still *be* who he is to me until I remember. And that I will remember. I always remember. I'm trying to think that through. It somehow felt warm.
Twinleaf, it is so ironic that your old analyst is telling others what to do with termination. I would be furious, I think.
Everything seems so far away, still. And confused. But I do appreciate you guys and what I find here.
poster:Dinah
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