Posted by peddidle on February 2, 2007, at 23:04:54
In reply to Re: Why can't I talk? (long...what else is new?) » peddidle, posted by happykat on February 2, 2007, at 12:34:46
> Hi peddidle,
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> I struggle with this too. :( The only way I seem to be able to express myself is through writing. I started out writing up a page about the previous session, what we talked about, how I felt etc.. (I do this within hours of the session) then I write out what's happend during the week and what I want to talk about on another page and hand it to her at the beginning of the session. It has made it alot easier. It's still hard and sometimes I blank out when I go to write what's happened during the week but it's better than sitting there nodding or not answering honestly. Try it! It might help! :)
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> Regards,
> happykatWriting something and handing it to her would be a lot easier, albeit still somewhat difficult, than actually saying it. You're right, writing something for her to read has to be a lot better than sitting there bobbing my head. I really want to be able to answer her honestly when she asks "what are you thinking?" but I just don't know how to put the thoughts into words.
There is actually one thing that I really do want her to read. I wrote my best friend a note when she died, and she has it with her. I told my T about it earlier this year, and she asked me what I wrote. I told her I didn't remember, which is not entirely true, I remember some of it. I also told her that I kept a copy of it for myself and that I would let her read it. But when I went to get it, I couldn't find it anywhere! I thought I had been keeping it in my purse, but I couldn't find it there. I have all but turned my room at home inside out looking for it, and I can't find it anywhere. It's not just uspsetting because I can't find it for her to read, but also because I don't have it for myself.
Wow, I went off on a tangent. Sorry about that.
Thanks for your advice, happykat!
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