Posted by Lindenblüte on September 22, 2006, at 23:08:04
In reply to Re: Okay, it's starting to sink in **trauma trigger** » Lindenblüte, posted by Daisym on September 22, 2006, at 22:44:54
thanks Daisy
((((daisy))))
I just ate gummi bears. I had gelato too. it's good comfort food. I guess I like sweets.
Cream of wheat might be healthier though... but gummi bears are cuter :)
I'm getting a new T next week. This is pretty wierd for me right now. Coming home from work, I felt like I was in some nightmare and the only way to feel "real" was to hurt myself. then I felt pretty... well. angry. listening to angry bartok string quartets. really agitato. and then. kind of mellow. even... happy! yeah! gummi bears. and I called a friend from college and told her what's up with me, in the vaguest sense. She says well... at least you weren't diagnosed with mild schizophrenia (like she was at age 17)... I said... um, no. that's a good point. And then we talked about the dating scene. I felt like me again ((((((me))))). I like talking with people who know me independently of my family or my marriage. That way I don't have to wonder what they will tell my mom or my husband.
hmmm. I think it's a good time to take a sleeping pill. my pdoc upped my seroquel. (((pdockery))). Can't he give me an anti-flashback pill?
Anyways, my old T said today at my final session that he was going to get in touch with my new T and try to recommend sessions 3-4 times a week for the short-term. I guess everyone's kind of worried about me right now. I'm kind of ... euphoric ... WTF? hmmm. Linkadge may be to blame. I tried his chocolate experiment on the Alternative board. mmm.
okay enough silliness. off to bed with me. All in all, a pretty damn good friday night. no flashbacks, no bodily harm imagined or committed, no weepy fests. what will the morrow bring? hell if I know?
-Li
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